Passion

I’ve invested so much time and energy into all of these passions, to see them eventually morph into something completely different. I still pick up my guitars every once in a while, but the feeling is much different. I no longer get that pure adrenaline rush like I used to. I no longer get goosebumps while playing my favorite song. Ugh, I miss that. I knew that there was always one thing that could calm my soul: my art, my music and my writing. I had many opportunities to kick it up a notch and gear it towards the professional aspect of it, but I was too scared. I was afraid I wasn’t good enough. At one point in my life, an art gallery in Colorado wanted to exhibit my work. They went bankrupt, however I would have probably backed out of it, due to a few comments and “critiques” I had gotten at a art gallery here in New York. I felt like a complete failure. “Gotta have a thick skin”----yeah I know, but it still was a kick in the ass. I looked around the gallery and thought, “My God, this art looks like a three year old did it!” They chose sloppy art and mediocre photography over mine, so instead, I decided to put all of my photography up on my walls in my living room. Maybe for sentimental reasons, I thought they were better than everyone else’s that seemed to dull the gallery’s walls. Or, maybe I’m just bad at it. I don’t care. Each photo I take is something that is special in my heart, so when I look at them, it makes me feel calm. That’s what makes it worth it.
When I film a home video and practice with my editing, it’s my family and friends. I’ll never get sick of filming and taking photographs of the people I love the most. So with this job interview I have to be in video production/editing for a company based in NY, hopefully it won’t jostle my passion for the one thing I have left now.
When I film a home video and practice with my editing, it’s my family and friends. I’ll never get sick of filming and taking photographs of the people I love the most. So with this job interview I have to be in video production/editing for a company based in NY, hopefully it won’t jostle my passion for the one thing I have left now.
Say a prayer for me!