Friday, June 29, 2007

Using the Bible to Bash Homosexuals

We’re not broken.

It’s amazing how some people will find flaws in others. It’s crazy when other Christians cast stones while preaching the word of God. There are a bunch of Ted Haggards roaming the earth.

A few “so called loving Christians” have voiced their concerns with my new book. They’re afraid that I’m teaching a false doctrine. I’m not writing a bible here. I’m writing a book based upon the differences between religion and spirituality in my own views. I have that right. People have the right to choose what they believe. I have no authority over that. God gave us “choice”. We have the right to make our own decisions and conclusions of whether or not we’d find solace believing in a particular faith or belief system.

Why do people feel they can fix others? Why do so many “Christians” want to change people and mold them in a form that suits their own kind? I truly believe that these types of people don’t have enough faith in what Jesus has done for us, that they feel the need to be bound by old law and force-feed their “truth” to others. I don’t force-feed my beliefs. I share and I love hearing other people’s views and beliefs. I have absolutely no right to judge.

There’s only one truth- some would say. Why are people using the bible to hurt others? If you read some of this, and then head over to this blog, you’ll see people who have a mission to turn all homosexuals into heterosexuals. These people got some sort of recognition with a Monument Award, which is based upon this:
“In an effort to encourage more Christian bloggers to monitor, analyze and publish (MAP) the gay christian movement, GCM has launched a monthly award called the Monument Awards. The Monument will highlight the posts of blog authors who present a clear biblical defense of truth in the face the false theology of the gay Christian movement.”

If they’re not secretly gay or harbor feelings of homosexuality themselves, then why are they so focused and determined to bash homosexuals or turn the LGBT community away from God?

Christine from “Talk Wisdom”, rectifies her belief that God condemns homosexuality with these verses:

Mat 7:13 "Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it."

Mat 7:14 "Because[fn1] narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it."

Mat 7:15 "Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ravenous wolves."

Mat 7:16 "You will know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes from thorn bushes or figs from thistles?"

Mat 7:17 "Even so, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit."

Mat 7:18 "A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a bad tree bear good fruit."

Mat 7:19 "Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire."

Mat 7:20 "Therefore by their fruits you will know them."

Mat 7:21 "Not everyone who says to Me, 'Lord, Lord,' shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven."

Mat 7:22 "Many will say to Me in that day, 'Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?'"

Mat 7:23 "And then I will declare to them, 'I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!'"

Mat 7:24 "Therefore whoever hears these sayings of Mine, and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who built his house on the rock."

Mat 7:25 "and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it did not fall, for it was founded on the rock."

Mat 7:26 "But everyone who hears these sayings of Mine, and does not do them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand."

Mat 7:27 "and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it fell. And great was its fall."

Do you see anywhere in these scriptures, where it says that Jesus condemns homosexuality? What these “Christians” do is twist the scriptures in order to bash homosexuals. They take passages from the bible and fit it to their preferences. They say that gays and lesbians who are Christian do the same. The difference is, the scriptures that I point out have everything to do with this matter. They refuse to give you a straight answer, or a supply you with a scripture that fits the bill. They’ll cherry pick their favorite condemning scripture and say it was meant for “you”, when in fact, it’s meant for “evil people” who practice wicked things.

I have supplied passages numerous times that prove to me, and prove to other people as well, that homosexuality is not a sin- the act of promiscuity is. There’s a huge difference between lust and love. They can’t distinguish between the two. They’ll say anything outside of a marriage is committing adultery. Well, if the LGBT community were able to get married legally, this would be possible. “People” have set the rules and regulations over this law determined purely out of discrimination and different interpretations of what they feel is fit for America as well as biblically. They also leave out the fact that in the bible, being a divorcee who remarries while their ex is still alive is a sin. That’s “outside” of marriage too. But they don’t think that’s valid. Why?

Because they’re heterosexuals.

Christine also makes this statement about Susan Powter. She said, “Susan was a victim of spousal infidelity and abandonment when her first husband left her for a younger woman. When women get stomped on by the men in their lives and then some of them end up turning towards lesbianism, I always get a nagging question in my mind. Is lesbianism fixed or fluid? Which is it?”

I can answer that for her, through my own personal experiences. Every guy I have dated when I was younger was more than respectful towards me and treated me with love and kindness. I never once had a bad experience with a man. I had a boyfriend before I came out as a lesbian. He was the most beautiful man, inside and out. Today, I still communicate with him from time to time. He’s the most giving, caring, compassionate man I have ever known. He never once disrespected me. He never “stomped on me” and he is not the reason why I’m a lesbian. My genes are. The way God created me is the reason why my orientation is the way it is.

I asked Christine why she focuses so much on lesbians. She really doesn’t ramble on too much about gay men. I asked her if she had repressed feelings about being a lesbian herself, since she is so focused on the topic—more than Christianity itself.

She said, “Oh yeah Deb. Yep. You found me out! Sheesh... I've only been married for 24 years to a wonderful man who loves me (and I love him!) and we have two grown children. Yeah...that would tend to make others think that I'm a repressed lesbian.”

I replied, “I have a friend who was married to a man for 33 years. She came out of the closet due to her sexual orientation that she has known ever since she was a child. Sometimes people come out late. Who knows?”

I have a very special reader on my blog that does not choose to comment. She reads me daily and emails me every so often. She’s stuck in a situation that she can’t get out of, due to having many children in her marriage. She wanted to do the right thing. Now she’s unhappy. (And yes, I have permission from this anonymous woman to post this story as long as I don't use her name.) She is now well into her late 50’s and feels repressed and resentful. Her kids are grown up and she’s afraid of coming out, ruining everything she has known all her life to be comfortable. She feels it’s too late to be herself and find what it’s like to live a life that she wants. But that’s hard. How can she? She can do the best she can with what she has right now. If she decides to leave what she has, that is purely up to her…and not anyone else.

So don’t give me the, “I’ve been married for somewhat years and have children” bit. It happens. I’m not saying you’re a homosexual Christine, I’m just pointing out an observation about you, since you seem to focus way too much on lesbians.

Let gays have the option to be Christian and love God. Why are you trying to convince them to turn away from God or better yet- trying to change their lives and fix them, when only God can? Don’t you trust God enough?

These are questions I have for everyone who feels the need to “fix us”. We’re not broken.

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Writer's Block

As some of you probably already know, I’m working on my second book right now. It’s been exciting and this book seems to flow better than my first one. I’ve started two other books that just didn’t flow well. One was based on a fictional story about two lesbians who went through trials of discrimination. The bulk of the storyline was focused on the military life. I’m sure you can imagine some of the plots right there. It’s not finished, however, it’s sitting on the back burner for now because fiction isn’t my bag. This new book is almost halfway finished and focuses on the differences between religion and spirituality. I’m actually having a lot of fun with it and getting some great ideas from all of you out there, as well as doing some research.

It’s funny trying to sit down and write without the phone constantly ringing, or being at a place that just isn’t conducive to creativity. Amy suggested that I head over to the café and write my heart out. The problem with that is, I would do more people watching, rather than focus on what I’m writing. My café mochas would be pumpin’ my heart a million beats per minute, and I would most likely be listening to a juicy conversation at the next table. My ADD would kick in big time and my book would be a huge gossip column. Not good.

I started my writing while on vacation in the Hamptons. I watched the surf come crashing in, as the sunset danced across the ocean. It was the most beautiful sight ever. The bulk of my inspiration was sitting outside on my deck watching the ocean and praying. I’ve had so many revelations, confirmations from God and thought processes. It was what I needed to start my new book. Each day I’m finished with a few chapters. Sometimes, I find myself writing so fast, that the errors are just unreal. I usually have them edited and thrown back to me like a second grade grammar school student.

I know that a few of you who read me have written books yourselves. Right now, I’ve come to a little bit of a stumbling block. I don’t want to force a new chapter, I need it to come crashing through like all the others did. I guess I have writer’s block right now. It usually creeps back in when I least expect it. As writers yourselves, what techniques do you use or inspiration do you get in order to continue writing? I think it helps a lot to hear from other writers. It helps hearing from numerous authors who write anything--whether it be poetry, song lyrics or even short stories and blogs. What plants the seeds of your stories or lyrics? Is there something you do that produces more thought processes and ideas?

I’ve heard that espresso works well. I tried this, and although it does give me energy, I find myself with racing thoughts, instead of focused and well thought out ideas. It’s almost like my blog, very fast paced and rambled through. They say that if you eat more fish, this seems to help with brain functions. (I need a truckload!) I’ve been eating fish almost two to three times per week. I guess it helps. I’m not sure. It comes and goes. All the mercury in my blood probably gave me this blockage.

I’ll be writing here and there on the blog when I come to a stumbling block, but for now, I’m going to focus on my book and try to visit you all when I can. You’ll probably see some funny random videos on here – or just some short dribble about my frustrations with this new book.

And for those who have personally emailed me asking if I was moving to Denver, please read the entire post and see that it was a sarcastic poke fun bit at Dani. My roots are long and deep in New York.

Friday, June 22, 2007

Moving to Denver

Yes, you read that right. I’m making the big move. I’m off to Denver to go live with Dani, Curtis and Maxime. Or wait- did I put that in the wrong order? I’m sorry. Curtis, Dani and Maxime. We have to make sure that the men are first and the women are last.

I’m excited though. They’ve opened their home to me. You can hear their invitation here. They’re providing me with my own bedroom within their home. My sister wives are setting me up with a ‘surprise husband’… Curtis. We are all going to be one happy family. See, when Maxime moved over to Denver to move in with Curtis and Dani, they were planning a “surprise husband”. Well, Curtis is one lucky man. He not only has two wives, he has three now. I plan to marry him a week after my stay, so we can fornicate as soon as possible. I hope my sister wives show me the ropes. Polygamy at its finest. I’m no longer a lesbian anymore. I’m a radical Christian fundamentalist that will be attending the Denver Bible Church.

So many events have been planned! Our first outing will be at a gay pride fest. We’re going to picket and warn these lost souls that they’re all headed straight to hell! We’ll march around their festival and scream on the top of our lungs, “God made Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve!” We’re clever like that. We’ll then take a ride down to the nearest military funeral to see if a gay soldier lost his life in the war. We’ll protest around the mourners with antigay pickets that read, “Gay soldiers go to hell!” We’ll smile and laugh, as we tell their loved ones where they are headed. It’s for the best you know.

After a long day of warning these sick perverts who hate God, we’ll head over to the Denver Bible Church and pray for them. We’ll pray for these heathens, who’ve taken pleasure in wicked activities and who’ve influenced others around them. We’ll pray that God will throw a bomb on them, leaving nothing but a birdcage of ashes. We’ll sashay over to the alter and sing Christian songs, like, “Another One Bites the Dust”, to show the seriousness of this, and “I’m Coming Out”, to show how we’re straight and proud!

"You do an eclectic celebration of the dance! You do Fosse, Fosse, Fosse! You do Martha Graham, Martha Graham, Martha Graham! Or Twyla, Twyla, Twyla! Or Michael Kidd, Michael Kidd, Michael Kidd, Michael Kidd! Or Madonna, Madonna, Madonna! But you keep it all inside." Curtis says, in his most flamboyant voice.

We’ll head over to the club afterwards and dance the night away in rainbow colored strobe lights. Drinks will include pretty colored martinis and a margarita for Dani- as she prefers them.

We’ll come home to our sanctuary, where no one can see behind our closed doors. We’ll let Curtis do the interior decorating for my new room, and I’ll let Dani borrow my Birkenstocks for her next outing. Maxime will be quick to borrow my Indigo Girls, and KD Lang CDs. We’re all going to have a great time learning about one another as sister wives.

We’re all going to influence one another so nicely! Wish me luck!

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Detour to the Hamptons

Although I was planning to head off to Provincetown, MA to work on my second book, and of course relax, I took a little detour. I put some clips together of my vacation so you can see how beautiful it really is over there.

Here are some photos I took below. Whenever I see something that calms me, I take pictures. The last picture just reminded me of the hectic place I'd be returning to.

Monday, June 18, 2007

The Angry Little Gay Man---Nelson Garcia From "NG Blog"

What is anger? It’s a negative emotion stemming from something. That “something” may not have anything to do with the subject that the anger spilled upon. The blogger who goes by the initials, “NG”, Nelson Garcia, is angry. He’s infuriated…but by what? He was angry well before he got upset with me for my opinions. I’ve looked into the archives of his blog and sifted through posts about attorneys, losing cases, exploiting politicians caught in sexual acts, as well as bashing other bloggers for having strong opinions…like he does.

He stated, “And she has the unmitigated gall to tell me I need God in my life. If anything, honey, you are exactly why I don't need God in my life.If ever there was a more exemplary case of why it is I'm disdainful towards the christian gay community, this be it.Dare I say (or write) again.. I won't be at all surprised to read one day that Debra Pasquella has gone ex-gay. In fact, the sooner she does, the better the gay community as a whole will be off.”

My opinion? He does need God in his life. When I come across those who don’t have a particular belief system, faith, or believe in the trinity, they become angry, because there’s nothing to live for other than their own mortal lives. There are no set morals, because to them, they turn to dust after they live on this earth, with no spirit to follow afterwards. Maybe that's it--no spirit? They’re angry because other people are happy. He’s not happy with himself. Just scrolling through his bitter blog I am reminded of that lost boy in school who felt isolated from everyone. He was gay and probably mocked for it. What he should have done was turn it around in a positive way, instead of becoming this middle-aged bitter person. In some cases, you get the results that left many devastated, such as those school shooting tragedies. Isolation, bitterness along with the desire to hurt, destroy or ruin somebody are all ingredients for a madman. I seriously believe that.

Good people enjoy the positive results of their words, but those who are treacherous crave violence. Those who control their tongue will have a long life; a quick retort can ruin everything. ~Proverbs 132-3

He feels it would be better if I weren’t in the “gay community”. As far as Nelson is concerned, I’m not in the “gay community”. I’m among them, and around other people who are heterosexual as well. I don’t discriminate against straight people, as he apparently does. Most people that are in my life are heterosexuals. Due to the high amount of discrimination that the gays and lesbians have, it left a bad taste in my mouth. Don't get me wrong, I have many homosexual friends, but most are heterosexuals. I don't choose their friendships due to their sexual orientations.

I also want to point out that I do love my fellow Christians—even those who are opposed to my views. He asked why I even deal with people like Christine, Mark and Dani. We debate, and sometimes it does get hairy, I will admit, however, I admire each and every one of them for their strong faith in God. We can relate on many levels…except for the fact that my beliefs lean towards the concept that homosexuality isn’t a sin. I’ve witnessed more anger through NG’s blog, more so than any one of the mentioned Christians above. (Dani can be a bit harsh, but she sincerely invited me to live in her home to convert me, which I thought was a nice attempt.) Her beliefs are WAY strong, yet they’re her “truths”, so she feels that she’s doing a good thing. Again, I admire it. We’ve come to a civil point in our debates where we know where we both stand.

Nelson Garcia won’t let anything go. He’s stewing over every single thing that comes his way.

He stated:

“That said, the claim that I'm promoting a book is fraudulent. No, I didn't e-mail Debra; In fact, once it was made clear from other bloggers that someone associated with Debra was playing games at my expense via other blogs, I decided to play a game too which apparently worked since no sooner did I announce it, Debra, who said, and you can read for yourself that she was blocking my e-mail wrote me back denying it all.”

Lie after like after lie with this guy. The NG blog is full of lies and deception. First of all, I have never, ever claimed that he was promoting a book. Him? And the only reason why we have begun this little war is because of his nasty emails to me. There is nobody that I know of who is associated with me who “played games” on other people’s blogs. I could swear on a bible...but I don't believe he could. Why should he? He doesn't even have God in his life. It makes it that much easier.

I did block Nelson’s emails, because he was harassing me. I told him he could stop reading my blog if he was so offended. That’s his right and its that simple. He kept on sending me nasty little tidbits of his anger and then I blocked him. Anyone would have blocked this maniac.

Those who are godly hate lies the wicked come to shame and disgrace. ~Proverbs 13:5

Sound familiar?

Nelson, with all due respect, stay on your blog and I’ll stay on mine. I think this debate is unproductive and pointless. You’ve failed to present your side in a tactful or respectful way. You’re against everything that anyone stands for. You’ve lied profusely, and it’s quite embarrassing to see you go through this.

Let’s agree to disagree and end this. No one is getting any positive messages through our bantering. I’m not sure why you’re so troubled or defensive over everything, but I would like to extend the olive branch and have this be final. You have the right to your own opinion. You have the right to blog about anything or anyone you want to. You have the right to exploit those who are weak. You have the right to make your point heard. You have the right to be inhumane to others.

I have the right to do the same. I just choose to do it in a much different way…and that’s what makes us unique. The weaknesses that the humankind struggles with are your own. Maybe you should consider relating to people, rather than judging them. Hasn’t the “gay community” suffered enough? Yet you're so busy trying to get everybody to accept you...I just don't get it.

My advice? Find God or find yourself a good martini bar. The first one's on me!

Sunday, June 17, 2007

What? You're Offended, Nelson Garcia?

There are tons of hidden people out there online, surfing, lurking, participating in conversations, as well as pretending to be people they’re not. There are others who love to ruin someone’s reputation, only due to different beliefs and opinions. Blogs are blogs. They’re not a good resource as far as looking up important information about a person. I’ve come across many blogs that exploited innocent people, giving harsh opinions and judgments about them. It’s their right to speak their mind, but when does it come to the point of lying straight out about them?

Yesterday was my second year of blogging. Within that time, I’ve met some really awesome people, whether they were writers or people who stopped by to read what I had to say. I was honored. I started this blog because I was writing a book at the time. I’m a new writer- not a big top seller on the Barnes and Noble’s shelves, (I wish) however, it took a lot of energy, time and healing to write A Prayer Away From Healing. I was going through a rough break up and found solace by praying to God about my problems and writing down how God helped me through it all.

I don’t claim to be “accomplished”, as some people keep describing me as. I’m just a person who loves to put her thoughts, ideas and beliefs in a book or in a blog. I had several people who have read me insist that I went under different aliases, that I wasn’t really “gay”, and how my very own opinions were offensive. One person, who goes under the name of Kevin, was offended by one of my comments over at another blog. I explained that I didn’t particularly care for the word “pride” when speaking about my lifestyle. I also went on about how I thought the gay pride parades weren’t for me. I didn’t like some of the marchers who walked around half naked, holding explicit picket signs and having sexual encounters right in front of children and other people. How does this look for the gays and lesbians who are trying to tell society that we’re not freaks?

As the debate got heated, I made an apology over to Kevin, stating that my opinions may have been harsh, and that I was sorry if I had offended him. Another blogger that goes under the name “NG”, Nelson Garcia, had written me a very nasty email stating that I gave Kevin a “half ass apology”, because my apology was coincided with an embarrassing event that took place in my life days after. The whole story revolved around my sense of pride, and how I was reacting to everything lately in a negative way. I was being honest and opening up to my readers. Kevin graciously accepted my apology and we resolved everything civily. Nelson Garcia was still infuriated by it all.

Nelson continued to harass me, and then resorted to lying about me on the internet. He stated on his blog that I was going under a different alias- who happens to be "Loud Mouth". He usually sides with me, and no- he is not my alter ego. He is a real person who I know personally. Nelson kept emailing me with insults and threats that he was going to reveal how my book was selling. Okay… Fine. Knock yourself out, but why would you put all that negative energy into a person you don’t even know? He stated that he was going to display my ranking number each time a New York ip or surrounding area would appear on his blog. (His assumption of my area included cities that were nearly 5 hours apart from one another...great tracking system!) Please---state my ranking numbers so people will buy my book! I was hysterical over his obsession with me- then I saw what this guy is all about. He’s an angry little gay man who doesn’t talk about anything other than exploiting people and politicians who have been caught in sexual acts or some other controversial matter. He’s a busybody- a wash woman if you will. He thrives on gossip, particularly the Republican Party. He looks to defame and embarrass, when in fact, the embarrassing part about this all is his very own blog.

Nelson Garcia has an ad out on his blog that says, “Hot Gay Hook Ups For Men”, while he blasts politicians and bloggers about having opinions of their own. It was part of a google ad. In his profile description, it reads:

“The views and or opinions are mine and mine alone and do not necessarily represent the views of the online gay and lesbian community. So there.”

So there? Is Nelson the only one allowed to have an opinion or thought? It baffles me that there are so many closed-minded homosexuals out there, when in fact, they are craving for acceptance from others. How can he gain acceptance by bashing every single person who has made a humanly mistake, or has done things differently than him? Or...has he done the same and is just reflecting upon his own nature? He’s a the ultimate hypocrite who doesn’t understand the meaning of tolerance…yet this is what “his community” stands for? This is what they fight for? Don’t you have to give back in order to receive? Maybe not in Nelson’s world, but the desire to tear people down is a sign of unhappiness within himself.

I’m starting not to like the phrase “gay community”, only because we have so many unique individuals that I wouldn’t want to be associated with. Am I being discriminating? I don’t believe so, but when a strong-minded gay person starts bashing everyone and their mother out of pure anger and resentment, you have to take a step back and think, what are his/her motives?

The ironic part about this all, is that there are sites that Nelson is affiliated with, which distribute and emphasize on gay sex. It’s purely promiscuous and actually, down right smut. So, when I read his new post about some politician going down due to sexual exploitation, I have to wonder how this makes Nelson feel, since he’s living in a perverse world of his own.

Take a peek at Nelson Garcia’s blog and notice the anger he stirs up…within himself. Pray for him, that his anger subsides and that he becomes more tolerant to those who are like himself. It's kind of sad.

It’s a shame that my view on the “gay community” has dwindled because of people like Nelson Garcia. I really don’t feel that my opinion about the gay pride parades is offensive, since some of the marchers are offensive to me. How can I ever think to bring my nieces or nephews to one of these, if there is way too much sexual activity going on? You just can’t anymore. It only takes a few to ruin a good thing.

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

On Vacation

I’ll be away until June 21rst. As much as I’m going to miss you all, I plan to sink my feet in the sand and “not think”.

Monday, June 11, 2007

Casting Call!

How are gay families different from heterosexual families? Do children of gay and lesbian couples grow up as successfully as children raised in heterosexual families? Is good parenting influenced by sexual orientation? It is estimated that the number of children nationwide living with at least one gay parent ranges from six to 14 million. These families were born of heterosexual marriages where a parent has since come out, have come together through adoption, or are biologically related, but no matter what the vehicle, their existence is undeniable and is forever altering the traditional definition of “family”.

The 90 minute documentary follows the daily lives of these families who are facing the usual situations that most families deal with. We are setting out to provide an opportunity for people to learn about these families and create an insightful exploration of challenges and joys of family life in a lesbian or gay household. The film will be presented to LOGO and other big networks, also including film festivals

If you are interested in your family participating in any capacity and would like more info, please send an email to . This documentary will be taken in the New York area.

EDIT: We’re also welcoming fundamentalists’ views on what they think about homosexual families. So, if you’re a fundamentalist Christian or totally against homosexuality in general, please email me if you’d like to be apart of this project.

Friday, June 08, 2007

Bound By the Law

Romans 3: 19-20
Obviously, the law applies to those to whom it was given, for its purpose to keep people from having excuses and to bring the entire world into judgment before God. For no one can ever be made right in God’s sight by doing what his law commands. For the more we know God’s law, the clearer it becomes that we aren’t obeying it.
Romans 7 1-6
Now, dear brothers and sisters—you who are familiar with the law—don’t you know that the law applies only to a person who is still living? Let me illustrate. When a woman marries, the law binds her to her husband as long as he is alive. But if he dies, the laws of marriage no longer apply to her. So while her husband is alive, she would be committing adultery if she married another man. But if her husband dies, she is free from that law and does not commit adultery when she remarries.
So this is the point: The law no longer holds you in its power, because you died to its power when you died with Christ on the cross. And now you are united with the one who was raised from the dead. As a result, you can produce good fruit, that is, good deeds for God. When we were controlled by our old nature, sinful desires were at work within us, and the law aroused these evil desires that produced sinful deeds, resulting in death. But now we have been released from the law, for we died with Christ and we are no longer captive to its power. Now we can really serve God, not in the old way by obeying the letter of the law, but in the new way, by the Spirit.

Here… Look at Galatians chapter two verses 17 through 21:

But what if we seek to be made right with God through faith in Christ and then find out that we are still sinners? Has Christ led us into sin? Of course not! Rather, I make myself guilty if rebuild the old system I already tore down. For when I tried to keep the law, I realized I could never earn God’s approval. So I died to the law so that I might live for God. I have been crucified with Christ. I myself no longer live, but Christ lives in me. So I live my life in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me an gave himself for me. I am not one for those who treats the grace of God as meaningless. For if we could be saved by keeping the law, then there was no need for Christ to die.
After we were freed from the law, we are made right with God through faith alone- and nothing else. For those who strongly feel that homosexuality is a sin, I urge you to read this next scripture and explain to me what you feel or interpret it to mean.

Galatians 3:24-29
Let me put it in another way. The law was our guardian and teacher to lead us until Christ came. So now, through faith in Christ, we are made right with God. But now that faith in Christ has come, we no longer need the law as our guardian. So you are all children of God through faith in Christ Jesus. And all who have been united with Christ in baptism have been made like him. There is no longer Jew or Gentile, slave or free, male or female. For you are ALL Christians—you are one in Christ Jesus. And now that you belong to Christ, you are the true children of Abraham. You are his heirs, and now all the promises God gave to him belong to you.

So, what does the sentence, “There is no longer Jew or Gentile, slave or free, male or female” mean? To me, it means that gender is blind when it comes to love. Why do a lot of Christians tell half of what the scripture says.

For instance, let me disect this one passage in the bible that most Christians love to use on homosexuals. Bear with me here.

Here is my interpretation of the cherry picked version of 1 Corinthians 6:9-11…

“Don’t you know that those who do wrong will have no share in the Kingdom of God? Don’t you fool yourselves. Those who indulge in sexual sin, who are idol worshipers, adulterers, male prostitutes, homosexuals, thieves, greedy people, drunkards, abusers, and swindlers---none of these will have a share in the Kingdom of God.”
Now, most homosexuals will say to that verse that’s been thrown at them by other judgmental people, “Oh wow! I’m going to hell if I continue being gay!”
Wrong. Read the next verse, which most Christians fail to provide for you…

“There was a time when some of you were just like that, (before Christ), but now your sins have been washed away, and you have been set apart for God. You have been made right with God because of what the Lord Jesus Christ and the Spirit of our God have done for you.”
Christians will yell out, “that was past tense”---however, it was past tense **before Christ**. When Christ died for our sins, he paid the full price. It’s up to us whether or not we fully believe that our sins are washed away. It’s the old law. People are so bound by the old law that the guilt, shame of the old ways of the written word are still imbedded in them. Their upbringing due to what others thought was “immoral” or “not right in God’s eyes” are those people who lived a different lifestyle. There are people in this world who aren’t going to want a mate of the opposite sex. Some don’t want children, and others can adopt, just as those heterosexuals who cannot produce, and adopt themselves.

I’m no theologian, but it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to see that the bible has clear references that are made, which states we are no longer bound to the old written laws. We are free, because Jesus saved us. I fully believe that. I don’t insuinate that we do “evil” things, such as killing people or hurting others. There’s a huge difference between “evilness” and wanting to have a life full of love, regardless of what gender we fall for. Galatians specifically states that there is no longer Jew or Gentile, slave or free, male or female. Who we love isn’t based on gender.

For those homosexuals who are reading this post today, feel confident that God loves you. Know that it’s written in the bible that Jesus has washed away the old laws for Gentiles. Through faith, you’re saved. The law will never save anybody, and it’s written numerous times in the bible.

For the bible thumpin’ cherry picking Christians, they can quote scripture after scripture, but they will never seek peace, until they have finally brainwashed all their weak Christians into believing that their life is full of sin. The fact is, everyone’s life is full of sin.

Can we rest now?

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Questioning the Translations

What does the word “evil” mean? In the dictionary, it says this:

e·vil /ˈi vəl/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[ee-vuh l] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
1. morally wrong or bad; immoral; wicked: evil deeds; an evil life.

2. harmful; injurious: evil laws.

3. characterized or accompanied by misfortune or suffering; unfortunate; disastrous: to be fallen on evil days.

4. due to actual or imputed bad conduct or character: an evil reputation.

5. marked by anger, irritability, irascibility, etc.: He is known for his evil disposition.

In the “religious” context, it means not following God- anything against God’s will. Then you have those who believe that homosexual relationships are “evil”. I know both words, “evil” and “wicked” can mean immoral, however, there are plenty of immoral people out there who are promiscuous and those who don’t care about their bodies. Even when I think of the words, “evil” or “wicked”, I think of immorality as well as evil motives.

But that is immorality?

im·mo·ral·i·ty /ˌɪm əˈræl ɪ ti, ˌɪm ɔ-/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[im-uh-ral-i-tee, im-aw-] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun, plural -ties.
1. immoral quality, character, or conduct; wickedness; evilness.

2. sexual misconduct.

3. an immoral act.

Let’s focus on #2 for a moment. Sexual immorality. What does it consist of? Does it mean that we’re immoral of we engage in sexual activities if it’s with someone that we love? Heterosexuals and homosexuals have been persecuted and called, “adulterers” due to having an intimate relationship with someone they’ve been monogamous with. Marriage is the only way that will save them{us}. Then, you have to think about what it truly means to be married.

mar·riage /ˈmær ɪdʒ/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[mar-ij] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
1. the social institution under which a man and woman establish their decision to live as husband and wife by legal commitments, religious ceremonies, etc.

2. the state, condition, or relationship of being married; wedlock: a happy marriage.

3. the legal or religious ceremony that formalizes the decision of a man and woman to live as husband and wife, including the accompanying social festivities: to officiate at a marriage.

4. a relationship in which two people have pledged themselves to each other in the manner of a husband and wife, without legal sanction: trial marriage; homosexual marriage.

Everything points out to legality. A marriage, in my opinion, is a union between two people who are blessed by God. And, if they are atheists, then it’s a union between the both of them. It’s a “relationship”. It’s being monogamous and having only that one person to be with for the rest of your life. It’s not “evil” or “wicked” to love someone. It’s evil to destroy your body with sexual practices of many partners though. That’s physically and immorally dangerous.

I have so many questions still, mainly on religious topics of course. I’m writing this post because I still need concrete answers. I don’t think I’ll ever get them, since everyone interprets the bible, the meaning of words and their version of what it means to be married in a different ways. No one will ever agree upon one thing. It’s nearly impossible, since there are so many meanings for one word in the dictionary, and there are so many interpretations and translations of the bible.

Which one’s the truth?

What do we have to go on? Do we trust what another has interpreted? Or do we trust what God tells us in our hearts? A lot of fundamentalists will rant off, “Well if it feels good, then do it”, in order to tell homosexuals that we’re only after the same sex because it “feels good”. Well, for a lack of better words, it feels “right”. Maybe for some, it feels wrong, but for me, it’s the right thing to do. If I were to become an “ex-gay” and try to conform my life to how a lot of “Christians” would want me to, I’d be unhappy, resentful and full of anger. It’s not me. I’m hiding myself. I’d be back in the closet with the door locked.

We’re not much different from one another in terms of male and female. Of course, we have different genitalia- that’s a given, but all of us, male or female, have emotions, feelings, different opinions, intellect and personal relationships with God and people. We go through the same struggles. (Except for PMS guys!) We get sad over the same things, we fight over similar reasons and we love for the right reasons. We love who we love. Who am I to judge a heterosexual for loving a person of the opposite sex? What if this woman was once married? In the words of the bible, it’s a sin to marry a divorcee whose husband is still alive. So do I tell him that he’s evil for being with this woman? No. He fell in love with her and wants to be with her in a monogamous relationship. I see nothing wrong with that. Divorce has been confused many times in the bible about what it truly means. The Catholics have it down to a science and have the nice luxury of “annulments” handed out if the marriage doesn’t succeed.

I’ve been told a few times by other Christian readers that my version of the bible wasn’t good enough. I have the NLT (New Living Translation) bible. It speaks clearly, with simple words to understand the meaning from the old King James version, to the everyday language that we speak now. Are the words of my bible wrong? Have they translated it incorrectly?

In this website, it states, “The King James Version (KJV) is excellent, but you must use a dictionary as you read because it uses language typical of the time it was translated (1611). I recommend you purchase a more recent translation. The New American Standard Version (NASV) is believed by many to be one of the most accurate translations and is an excellent study Bible. The American Standard Version (ASV) is also excellent and highly accurate. The New King James Version (NKJV) is high on the recommended list. The New International Version (NIV) tries to make the text as easy to understand as possible and is an excellent reading Bible, but not a good study Bible.”

Why isn’t the NIV a good study bible? (The NLT is similar to the NIV.) If I was new in Christ- a born again, and needed to understand the words clearly, I would definitely pick up the NIV or the “Promise Bible” in order to better understand what these words mean. Thus, thou, ye, -- I just can’t read that without having to think, “What does this mean?” I get lost in the Old English way of talking. I could conform to it, but I couldn’t relate to it. I’d feel lost. I was taught to speak today’s English, therefore, I need to read it that way, and so do many other people.

But why would reading the NIV version be wrong or “not good” to study with? In my own opinion, the important thing is to pray and meditate before reading any bible. God will translate the message for you. Listen to God when you read the bible. Read the text, take it in, but most of all, pray for understanding. Even with the King James version, if you’re stuck reading that one- pray to God that He gives you the wisdom and understanding to translate it into His message to you.

Too many people are twisting the scriptures to fit their needs of teaching. But, it’s up to “you” to determine if the message is right for you. Just because I write, “Well this is right for me”, doesn’t mean that it may be right for you. Only GOD can tell you that. That’s why I feel it’s so important to have a personal relationship with God and forget about what other Christians or Catholics want to bog you down with. God’s word is true, not people’s.

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

A Little Piece of Heaven

It’s that time of year again where I’m starting to prepare for my summer vacation. Usually I swap vacation spots, but this year, I've decided to hit the one place that’s closest to my heart- Provincetown, MA.

In an article found here, it states its unique history.

The Town of Provincetown was incorporated in 1727, but its history begins much earlier as its well protected harbor offered excellent shelter from storms. Although the Vikings probably landed here to rest and repair their boats, the first recorded visit was by the European explorer Gosnold as early as 1602. Provincetown harbor was also the site of the first landing of the Mayflower in 1620, where the Mayflower Compact was signed. However, the first permanent settlement didn't take place until 1700, with fishing being the primary industry.

After the Revolution, the town boomed and its population rose 276.6% between 1790 and 1830. By the middle of the 19th century, Provincetown had developed as the prime maritime, fishing and commercial center of the Cape.

The Civil War, which destroyed so many New England businesses, only served to open more markets for Provincetown's fish. Portuguese sailors, picked up by American ships in the Azores and Cape Verde Islands to fill out their crews, came to Provincetown to live. Additional Portuguese immigrants moved to town by the 19th century to work on the whaling boats and coastal fishing vessels bringing their families and traditions. As a result, a strong Portuguese community within Provincetown began to flourish.

In 1875, there were 25 coastal and 36 ocean vessels operating from town, more than any community in the state including Boston. Provincetown was quite the bustling seaport town with all of the ancillary maritime businesses that sprang up, such as ship chandlers, sail makers, caulkers, riggers and blacksmiths.

The picturesque setting and salt air also began attracting artists and writers by the end of the 19th century. This contingent grew and poets, novelists, journalists, socialists, radicals and dilettantes formed an artistic environment that spawned the first American school of art and birth of modern American theater.

When the fishing industry faltered and the Portland Gale of 1898 swept away half of the town's wharves, Provincetown turned to another fledging industry to fill the economic gap. The resort population that visited Provincetown every summer, provided jobs to take the place of those lost as more individuals and families discovered the magic of Provincetown.

In the 1920's the artistic and literary productions of the town were of international repute and the abandoned sites of maritime businesses became the new homes of the seasonal visitor as sail lofts, warehouses and barns became studios, galleries and shops. Today, the wealth of preserved historic buildings combines with the lure of the sea to support a huge tourist and summer home industry.

While promoting my book there one year, we heard many things about the “haunting” of The Historic Inn at Crown Pointe; a bed and breakfast we stay in every year. I’m pretty sensitive to supernatural activities, and I remembered one room in particular had a strange sense that overwhelmed me once. It wasn’t a haunting from the typical ghost though. I soon found out with euphoric pangs going throughout my body, that it was the Holy Spirit. It was the best experience in my entire life, and each year, I request the same room. To me, and in my experience, ever since the Holy Spirit swept through me like a tornado, I’ve never been the same since. I started writing. I never wrote before. I mostly played guitar, wrote songs, worked on art and photography, but never wrote. It wasn’t in me.

After publishing a book and promoting them to local bookstores, they were disappointed that another publishing company had me, and that I was listed on Amazon. They said that it was competition for them.


How can Amazon be any competition to a local bookstore of a magnificent town? I realize that people can easily access the internet and get what they want at their convenience, but to pick up a book at a store and flip through the pages by hand is something I’d rather do. Even with music, I’d rather go to the music store to buy the CD, as opposed to purchasing the MP3’s for my iPod. The CD sound quality is much better in my opinion.

This little town in MA is my heart. I’ve thought about living there many times. I always had a side job waiting for me as a bartender in a few of the establishments, as well as writing. This town is not known for ‘bit corporate jobs’. It’s known for making money the old fashioned way- by working in restaurants, bars, shops, and making money as an artist. If I were to live there, I’d do all of the above. The only downside to living here is the winter season. Nearly everything shuts down. Only a few local bars and restaurants are open for their civilians. It’s quiet, desolate and the streets are covered with snow, leaving some people buried in the plow’s leftover mess. During the summer, you make a lot of money working in the restaurants, since it’s a booming with tons of tourists flocking in and out of there. They told me to store my nuts, so that I would survive suring the winter months. It’s hibernation time.

One of my favorite things to do while staying there, is to see a drag queen show. I remember one particular evening, where I was just about ready to call it quits because I was so tired from traveling. I wanted to stay up in my suite and sleep. Instead, I was persuaded to go see a show somewhere. We had no destination, other than to walk down Commercial Street and get shoved into a bar by some big haired drag queen in need of an audience. I grudgingly went. As we walked down the street, a huge “lady” (drag queen) put her arm around me and asked what we were doing for the evening. She was standing near a local pub. It didn’t look like your typical cabaret bar, but she was going to perform there anyway. This was our first experience with Pearlene. The show was a bit crass, but hysterical. He (or she) would pick on the straight men in the audience, questioning them about their sexuality. He asked my girlfriend if she was a “vagatarian”, and she said, “Well, almost.” Pearlene looked at her, then looked at me and said, “Oh honey, I’m soooooo sorry!” The picture below was after the show. As we were walking back to our bed and breakfast, we noticed this rather large “woman” on a very small scooter whizzing through Commercial Street with big glasses and a red and white polka dot fuzzy jacket. My girlfriend screams, “Look! It’s a clown!” (Enough where the drag queen could hear her clearly.) That’s when we met Miss. Richfield. She stopped to talk to us and asked how long we’ve been together. She said, “Well, I thought you two were in the wrong place, being that you don’t look like you’re gay at all!” She was very pleasant and yes, claimed Jesus as her Savior! She said she was a ‘church gal’. In this video, you’ll see Pearlene and Miss Richfield chatting it up.

This town isn’t only a vacation spot, it’s also my home. We have friends that live down there, the establishments that know us well, and the beautiful cape is the one place where I can think clearly and be myself, without judgmental people staring if I were to hold my girlfriend’s hand in public. It enables me to let my creative side flourish, being among other writers and artists. I’m working on my second book this year, but I wouldn’t call it work, I’d call it my time to reevaluate my life and spread the word of God to others who need to hear it.

If you’re ever in the area, pick up one of my books at Now Voyager Bookstore located on 357 Commercial St., Provincetown, MA 02657. The town welcomes everyone, straight, gay, lesbian, bi, transgenders, white, black, etc. No one’s excluded. It’s a little slice of heaven located on the edge of the east coast.

Monday, June 04, 2007

False Teaching

Warning Against False Teachers

Now the Holy Spirit tells us clearly that in the last times some will turn away from what we believe; they will follow lying spirits and teachings that come from demons. These teachers are hypocrites and liars. They pretend to be religious, but their consciences are dead. ~1 Timothy 4:1-2

Readers who have come onto my blog have experienced false teachers and witnessed “Christians” lying firsthand. They have also witnessed hypocrisy. I don’t even have to delve further into who or what I’m speaking of. It’s just common sense and common knowledge of whose teaching comes from demonic motives.

Those who want to live in peace and spread the love to others are constantly persecuted, because they’re living happy lives. “Christians” who have argued with me, believe that in order to be a true believer in Christ, that you must be unhappy. This is false. Do you really believe that your God, your Father in heaven, wants you to live a life full of sadness, guilt, resentment and anger? These emotions all root from evilness. It’s not from God.

Yes, and everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will suffer persecution. But evil people and impostors will flourish. They will go on deceiving others, and they themselves will be deceived. ~2 Timothy 3:12-13

You cannot tell a “Christian”, who believes in teaching harshly, that their beliefs are wrong. They claim it’s “truth”, when in fact, they themselves, are convinced that teaching with hatred and anger is the right thing to do. I’ve been experiencing this for years, and it’s time for me to step back and let them be, yet I still have many questions. I can’t convince anyone that my way is the true way. I can say, that my way is how I want to live and how I believe God wants me to live. I have peace with God, and I know that I’m right with God. How can anyone argue with what I believe?

And the peace of God, that transcends all understanding will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus. ~Php 4:7

My mind is at peace. My heart is at peace, because my relationship with God is mine. I own it. No one can tell me differently. If I get my messages from God, why should I believe other people?

People who preach the word of God, seem to have no credibility by the way they speak. For instance, the next scripture points out how ridiculous they sound:

If you claim to be religious but don’t control your tongue, you are just fooling yourself, and your religion is worthless. ~James 1:26

False teachers and people who have faith in godless religions are the ones who try to deceive and plant the seed of hatred in people. They think that people like myself, have a “quilt-like theology” that makes “religion” sound as though it’s loving.

Religion doesn’t love. Religion is correction, regulations, punishment to those who don’t do what everyone else is doing and of course, corruption. A relationship with God is much different. It’s not condemning those who have different views than you. It’s certainly not cursing others who have a unique relationship with God.

I feel similar things when I read the passage in Romans 2:2

"I know all the things you do. I have seen your hard work and your patient endurance. I know you don’t tolerate evil people. You have examined the claims of those who say they are apostles but are not. You have discovered that they are liars."

In the airwaves, which minimal amounts of people tune into, Curtis Kekoa still lets his lying tongue deceive the people who actually listen to his show. He’s lied about me, and has told people on his radio show things that I have not done, nor said. He has refused to correct his slander and continues to lie.

Telling lies about others is as harmful as hitting them with an ax, wounding them with a sword, or shooting them with a sharp arrow. ~Proverbs 25-18

These people aren’t against physical harm though, as they’ve already admitted. I was sent an interesting article by a special reader of mine. This website talks about Christian domestic discipline.

"A domestic discipline marriage is one in which one partner in the marriage is given authority over the other and has the means to back the authority, usually by spanking. A Christian Domestic Discipline marriage is one that is set up according to Biblical standards; that is, the husband is the authority in the household. The wife is submissive to her husband as is fit in the Lord and her husband loves her as himself. He has the ultimate authority in his household, but it is tempered with the knowledge that he must answer to God for his actions and decisions. He has the authority to spank his wife for punishment, but in real CDD marriages this is taken very seriously and usually happens only rarely. CDD is so much more than just spanking. It is the husband loving the wife enough to guide and teach her, and the wife loving the husband enough to follow his leadership. A Christian marriage embodies true romance and a Christian man a true hero. Though this seems unusual in today's United States, this kind of marriage has been practiced throughout history and is still practiced in many parts of the world today."

It also claims this little factoid:

“Though we recognize by its very nature this subject can be erotic, we will keep this website as clean and wholesome as possible. However, we will not seek to deny the erotic nature of some CDD marriages as we believe it is a natural consequence of following God's plan. After all, He created eroticism to be enjoyed inside a Christian marriage.”

I’m not saying that Curtis and Dani are into this weird scenario, however, it’s something that indeed tells a lot about the “Christian” mindset and how some people tick. I have to wonder if this falls into their category.

Dani has written, "We don't spank with our hands because our hands are meant for loving. The Bible says to use a rod (wooden spoon, switch or belt) for correction. Bob used a belt on his stepson and the boy’s dad was a cop (if I have this correctly?) and probably didn't like the fact that Bob was disciplining his son so he pressed charges."

One question: How do you spank with a rod, wooden spoon, a switch or belt? A belt is meant for whipping and a rod is meant for hitting.

Am I completely out of line by asking that?
EDIT: Read what Dani says about me in a loving, Christian way. Click here, as she goes on to call me a "dirty dyke". Is this the way Christians should treat one another?

Growth Spurts

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