Living Proof

In all honesty, I live my life by viewing how other people live. It’s not by doing what everybody else does, in fact it’s the total opposite. It’s simply looking at people’s lives, and noticing the many regrets that they now have. For instance, Mad and I entertained the idea of having a child of our own. Oddly enough, we kept bumping into people who have “child bearer’s remorse”. They would literally say, “I’m so sorry we had kids ‘cause we can’t go out, we can’t do this and we can’t have time to ourselves”, and then of course, you have the happy ones, which was always hopeful to see. With all of these people complaining about their decision in life of having kids, and noticing other people’s lives who had children who were miserable, I’m glad we didn’t make the choice to have kids. I get a lot of, “I miss my old life”, but I think, what about your life with your children who love you and look up to you? There are so many unhappy parents out there, and thankfully, there are some happ...

There are days where I just want to shut the world out, live inside my head, turn all TVs, phones, radios and other electronic devices off and listen to nothing other than the fire crackling and maybe a few dogs barking along the way. I was supposed to head into the city today, however after my second dizzy spell, I decided to take it easy and do my work from home. Human interaction is such a wonderful thing, isn’t it? But sometimes, you need that “me time”---that time to just shut the world out and focus on whatever it is you want, if even nothing at all. I had a friend ask if I wanted to join her for a quick glass of wine and talk. Normally, I would, but I just wouldn’t be good company today. I need the complete silence surrounding me and the calmness of just being content as one. I’m so grateful I have that option, because if I chose another path, it would be quite different. The other night while Madelene and I were grocery shopping, we had seen a woman and her three boys, pro...