Thursday, June 10, 2021

It's Not Enough

If you've been following this blog for a bit, and know my stance on certain issues, you know that I respect every single person's choice on what's right for them. It just the same as my views on abortion: even though 'for me'---I'm pro-life, I am also pro-choice for other women, as God is. God gives us free will. Shouldn't we leave the judgment up to God? Shouldn't we stay out of other people's business and personal choices? 

Yesterday, I sat down with one of my peers and talked about doing a job per diem at our local hospital. For one, my ideal job does not include hospitals. They're a huge Petri dish, and after this pandemic, I'm ok with working from home. I have mixed feelings right now to be honest. Anyway, it a little after 4pm, and I was cooking dinner for my better half. My peer looked over at me with her mask on inside my home and asked, "What are you so afraid of? Faith over fear!' And I just stared at her and shut my mouth thinking, "You're wearing a mask in my house, talking to someone who works from home." Listen, I'm ok with people wearing masks in my house---that's their thing,  just like my issue with working inside a hospital. I want to avoid it, just as she wants to avoid any plague I'm spewing from my own kitchen. 

As she raised her arms out and asked, "Is this it? Is this all you want---to just be working from home and cook?" 

She said, "It's not enough." 

"It's not enough." 

The more she pressed into me, the more fortunate I felt about my life. I looked at her--as she was busily, hustling & juggling over 10.000 phone calls within a minute and grunting about everyone she works with, and said, "Yes, I do. I'm ok right here with what I'm doing and how I'm living." 

With writing for a mental health organization, and also editing people's manuscripts, it can take up most of my morning. I do a couple of Zooms a day, make sure I find some time to help people struggling as well, and then tend to my own issues, maybe even go walking or meditate for my own sanity. If I want to remain here all day long, for however long, then that should not bother you if it doesn't bother me. 

And if you're reading this and struggle with anxiety, depression, grief or physical symptoms like fibromyalgia like I do, then you know just waking up to go brush your teeth and shower is considered a good day for most people like us. But I push myself farther than what my brain would feel comfortable with. 

That's why it doesn't bother me when someone decides to judge me based on my life. I'm still dealing with crippling grief, on top of my anxiety. So I took baby steps and eliminated things out of my life, like alcohol. That was huge for me, and I'm over four months sober. Cut me some slack. Many people are self-medicating, drinking all day and smoking their weed---if that's what gets you through the day, then that's great. For me, alcohol gives me more anxiety, so I am trying to give myself more peace in my life. (I also get judged for not drinking which is ironic in itself.) 

There are many people who say, "I wish I had a stay at home job." There are quite a few people who have made snarky comments, "It must be nice." ...That's ok. It lets me know that my life is a good life---a life that some people want themselves. And hey, am I happy all the time? No way! I'm grieving still, I am also still transitioning with my move to this new location. I am grateful, but I am still recovering. Recovery time is different for everyone. I am grateful for everything I have, and if that's all I'm ever going to get, then that's such a beautiful thing to me. I don't wish for more, I have it all. And to some, that's "not enough." Nothing will be enough to those who think it's "not enough." 

It boils down to faith. The most important thing in my life is to never be separated from God. I find it hard to wrap my head around Christians who sit there, wearing masks, taking the jab and telling me that they have faith in God. 

In Matthew 17:13-14 it says, "Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it." 

The masses will comply in order to gain more of this world. This is a test of your faith. Think about what tests Job went through. Satan thought Job wouldn't last through the first trial. But he passed all the tests and then gained everything back tenfold. Sometimes I wonder if any of my Christian friends have ever read the Bible, and then I start wondering---does that make me judgmental? I have a hard time sharing my beliefs with someone who is still praying to the Virgin Mary and and the saints, or those who get squirmy talking about God in general. So I never really bring it up because I love them dearly, and they also know where to find my beliefs. (Glad you're here.) 

With that being said, I honestly don't think it's too late for those who have been fooled by the false claims of safety this vax has to offer. Almost 10,000 people have already died of it, some in the hospital recovering from strokes, heart attacks and blood clotting issues. If you're truly interested in what's in this vax, please listen to Dr. Bryam Bridle, Professor of Viral Immunology and see what he has to say about the dangers of taking the jab. Down below is a video of his wealth of knowledge. Warning: This may definitely scare some people who have already taken it. It also may be taken down soon.  

In all honesty, I've also known that the masks do not work. I wore them so I wouldn't freak anyone out while I'm at the store, and will continue to wear one if someone feels uncomfortable. I just didn't want confrontation. It also gives me a false sense of safety, since I've always been a germaphobe in general. 

When Fauci's emails were revealed, he stated what we already knew. They do not work. They were made mainly for people who were infected. You can read it for yourself. Any "misunderstood message" that now flies around the internet is just plain out b.s. Judge for yourself. It's right there in black and white. 

If you don't believe the email real, then here's a video with him saying the same thing:  

And as he states, go with what you are comfortable with. If it makes you feel better wearing one, then do it. As I did in the past. 

If you made it this far, thank you for reading. I haven't even gotten to the point of this write up yet.

My point is this: especially now, with all the conflict in this world and the vaxxed vs the vaxxed---I want no part of it, if I can help it. With that being said, I am not afraid of being around those who are vaxxed, as it's stated by many scientists and doctors such as, Dr. Sherri Tenpenny, which warns us that being around those who are vaxxed are in danger of spike protein transmissions. It should not technically be considered "shedding" since the vax is not a genuine vax, which contains a virus. But I'm putting my faith over fear right now, and treating those who had a different personal health choice with respect and love. 

Here's my question to the vaxxed: how much research have you done, put aside the mainstream media and the top dogs of "science" to have so easily rolled up your sleeve and comply? 

And I hope ALL of this is wrong. I am not a scientist, nor am I a virologist. I do not know the absolute facts. But here's what's troubling... If a group of scientists say one thing, and another well-known group of scientists beg to differ, isn't that a red flag that something is wrong? People have given up their high positions in health care and their careers as scientist to tell the world about this. Isn't that in itself, alarming? 

The desperation to "get a needle in every arm" is mind-boggling to me. Bribes of donuts, burger and fries and beer, oh and maybe a lotto ticket from the nearest bodega. Isn't that strange? Why not offer free chemo and insulin? Why are we offering things that encourage diabetes and alcoholism? Think.

Put aside every single physical side effect that they're warning you about and put your faith in front of it. Think: the vax has the name Lucifer and 666 written all over it. The name and the number of the beast is in the jab. So you mean to tell me, as a Christian, who does not want to be separated from God, that I'm going to be OK with that? Any Christian who values the world above the risk of sickness and death needs to plead the blood of Jesus and ask for forgiveness. Read your Bibles, and ask for understanding and wisdom. Maybe it's not too late. That's not for me to judge. 

Getting back to the initial story about my peer saying that my life wasn't "enough,"---if all I did was save one person from their destruction, then I'm ok with my life. 

There's a story written by Loren Eisley which explains why I do what I do: 

One day a man was walking along the beach when he noticed a boy picking something up and gently throwing it into the ocean. 

Approaching the boy, he asked, “What are you doing?” 

The youth replied, “Throwing starfish back into the ocean. The surf is up and the tide is going out. If I don’t throw them back, they’ll die.” 

“Son,” the man said, “don’t you realize there are miles and miles of beach and hundreds of starfish? You can’t make a difference!” 

After listening politely, the boy bent down, picked up another starfish, and threw it back into the surf. Then, smiling at the man, he said…..“I made a difference for that one.”   

And I will continue to do so, God willing.

For the greatest commandment is the most beautiful thing of all. 

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Tuesday, May 11, 2021

When the World Shuns Your Existence

Do you ever get confused over contradicting scriptures in the Bible?  We're told we are supposed to love one another just as we love God---it's the greatest commandment in the Bible. Then why do some scriptures contradict that? Or does it? 

Here are some things in the Bible which tells us to avoid certain people. 
Bad influences (1 Corinthians 15:33). "Do not be misled: 'Bad company corrupts good character.'" 

False teachers (2 John 1:10). "If anyone comes to you and does not bring this teaching, do not take them into your house or welcome them." 
(Then what about this scripture? “Teacher, which is the great commandment in the Law? And he said to him, 'You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself.'"--Matthew 22:36-40) 

Professing Christians with sinful lifestyles (1 Corinthians 5:11). "You must not associate with anyone who claims to be a brother or sister but is sexually immoral or greedy, an idolater or slanderer, a drunkard or swindler." 
(In Matthew 7 it clearly says, "Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?")

Divisive people (Titus 3:10-11). "If people are causing divisions among you, give a first and second warning. After that, have nothing more to do with them...." 
(But then there is this scripture: Matthew 18:21, 22. "Then Peter came up and said to him, 'Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? As many as seven times?' Jesus said to him, 'I do not say to you seven times, but seventy times seven.'")

We shouldn't avoid unbelievers (1 Corinthians 5:9-11), but neither should we partner with them (2 Corinthians 6:14). "Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?" 
(I honestly haven't found a scripture that contradicts this one. It's pretty consistent with its message. I can try to use "judge not" or "love your neighbor" all day long, but what do you interpret this to mean?)

All my life, I've been friends with different people of various faiths. Not one ever tried converting me over to their religion and vise/versa. We respected one another's faiths and shared genuine friendships. I think people get frustrated with the Bible's messages, and their stories behind it. Oftentimes, the Bible speaks about the "church" itself, and to not associate with this one or that one, and to not judge one another, unless of course, they're "drunks who are promiscuous and reckless." Then wouldn't people want to help them if they're alcoholics? Shouldn't we love the person and not their "sin?" This is where it gets muddled for me. Aren't we all sinners? 

Current times we are facing a huge dilemma in our faith in Christianity. Many Christians and Evangelicals are adamant about their stance over the vaccine containing the name and number of the beast. And while I understand that in previous times, we have had this sort of issue too, between bar codes, the amount of letters in Reagan's name, or the numbers associated with our credit cards. But none really had the name and beast together and---consistently. I'm always skeptical when it comes to proof of the end times, and especially if someone is afraid that they're going to be receiving the name and number of the beast. But I have to say, nothing that has stirred me up so strongly this time. 

So then, if I believe the "V" is the name and number of the beast, then should I avoid all who have had the "V"? Should I see them as rejecting God? Or should I just keep doing what I've been doing all along, like being friends with anyone of any faith? 

See, it's not that I'm afraid of side effects or getting some sort of flu-like illness for 3-5 days---I'm afraid of literally losing my connection with God---to lose my own soul. For me, that's a deal breaker. To mock my belief, and to say that it's irrational, is unfair. It's like telling someone who's Muslim, "Here, eat some of this pork roast." Granted, they'd probably be forgiven, but taking the name and the number---there is no coming back from it. Once you receive it, in my faith, you've lost your soul. This is what I believe for myself. I hope I'm wrong. 

"It's selfish of you to not take the vaccine!"

Is it? Is it selfish of me to be faithful to God? Is it selfish of me to risk losing some of the freedoms they are planning to take away from me? Is it selfish of me to be segregated at a ballgame or to not be welcomed in someone's private business? Is it selfish for children to risk their scholarships and not go to college because of their beliefs? Or, is it selfish to gain the world, and lose eternity instead? Maybe we can even drop the word "selfish" and call it, "self-preservation" or "self-awareness" or "self-sacrificing?" 

I will go where I am welcomed. I will respect those who wish I'd keep my distance. That's okay. I know where my real home is, and that alone is worth more than a million dollars to me. For those who shun me, keep your world. You belong to the world. 

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Friday, May 07, 2021

Critical Thinking & Personal Beliefs Are Now Banned

Whether you're a believer or not, you've probably heard quite a few Christians saying that Jesus is coming back soon. As far as I can remember, each war, each political upheaval and catastrophic event in the world has led people to believe that the rapture was coming even sooner. But the fact still remains: nobody knows the day or hour. "But Deb, there's a pandemic now!" Okay---but remember back in 1968 when the Hong Kong Flu, (oh wait, politically incorrect)---the H3N2 virus struck? The pandemic that shook the entire globe? The estimated number of deaths was 1 million worldwide and about 100,000 in the United States. Most excess deaths were in people 65 years and older. The H3N2 virus continues to circulate worldwide as a seasonal influenza A virus.  Jesus did not come back. 

Trek back to the Spanish Flu, (oh wait, politically incorrect as well as literally incorrect)---the 1918 Pandemic. It is estimated that about 500 million people or one-third of the world’s population became infected with this virus. The number of deaths was estimated to be at least 50 million worldwide with about 675,000 occurring in the United States. Mortality was high in people younger than 5 years old, 20-40 years old, and 65 years and older. The high mortality in healthy people, including those in the 20-40 year age group, was a unique feature of this pandemic. While the 1918 H1N1 virus has been synthesized and evaluated, the properties that made it so devastating are not well understood. With no vaccine to protect against influenza infection and no antibiotics to treat secondary bacterial infections that can be associated with influenza infections, control efforts worldwide were limited to non-pharmaceutical interventions such as isolation, quarantine, good personal hygiene, use of disinfectants, and limitations of public gatherings, which were applied unevenly. 

No vaccine. The human race still thrived. And again, Jesus did not return for that one either. 

We've experienced earthquakes, tornadoes, hurricanes, tsunamis and nuclear meltdowns---all the things that the Bible points out to as a clear sign to the 'end times.' 

"This is unprecedented" --- no it is not. We have been through this before as humans. This hasn't happened in our lifetime, unless you're over the age of 100.  

So when is the right time to predict Jesus' return? 


Why never? Because He will come like a thief in the night, when you least expect Him, and maybe not even when there's something catastrophic happening. That's the point---to BE PREPARED. To BE READY. To stand on your faith even when the world is peaceful. If Jesus were to appear on the clouds and return to us, how would you feel? Would you be prepared today---right now as you're reading this----if He was to return to judge us and to either take or leave us---are you ready? 

I can't tell you how many times I've seen Christian prophets on social media saying that they're hearing angels speak to them and that the time is near and to be prepared. They're hearing loud explosions and some even hearing the trumpets (as I've heard in a dream once before, but tis just a dream, I believe.) Maybe it's good to get people to turn to God while they are uncertain and scared, but I don't believe fear should be a motivator to have a closer relationship with God. Fear, is not of God. 

About 25 years ago, I walked into a church called, "The Trinity Assembly of God." It was a born- again Christian church that based its sermons on the importance of repentance. And of course, being a new Christian, I wasn't ready to hear fear-mongering pastors reprimand me, while a divorcee and her new husband were sitting in the front row. I found every flaw, every hypocrisy, and every scripture to back up my ammunition when the time was right. 

One night, they had a female pastor speak. She had traveled out of state to be with us and spend two hours preaching. I'll never forget what she said, although most of my body language was leaning toward the exit sign. She was explaining how the rapture would be, and how those who relied on riding the coattails of other Christians would be disappointed. (Using exact words.) They're forever in my head.

"So you've pulled up to your mom's house, expecting to see family and friends to greet you. You walk towards the front door and notice that it's open already. You slowly walk in, calling out for your mom, your dad, your sister, your brother, but nobody answers you back. As you move down the hallway, you can smell the delicious aromas of food being prepared. Somebody's gotta be home, right? As you move toward the kitchen, you can see the stove. The oven has a turkey roasting and on the stovetop, pots are simmering, ready to be taken off. 

But where did everyone go? You're confused,  and so you search through the entire house inside and out. Not one person is there. That's how it'll be like if you don't repent." 

This is how the threat of being unrepentant was explained to me. Back then, I was so offended over everything. "How dare they say I'm not getting into heaven! Why do they hate us?" I seriously thought they hated me and anyone else who was a new Christian. In took many years to figure out that they were actually excited that I was there with them, so they can try and save my soul, hoping I would repent. It took THIS long to believe that story. And today, I love that story. It's how I imagine it would be like if I rejected God, or selfishly continued  living the way I did. But as a baby Christian, "How dare you judge me!" And of course, I always had to look up a bunch of "judge not" scriptures to justify anything.

In all honesty, these past few years have brought me to my knees. Between losing my parents, losing my childhood home, division with my family as well as adjusting to my new environment, plus the pandemic, I surrendered myself to God. I couldn't handle all of it. I couldn't handle the many nights I laid awake with a racing heart, thinking it would finally give out on me. The anxiety, depression and wishing God would just end my life, had consumed me. I can't say it doesn't happen from time to time, as it had recently. But I keep hanging onto God, and relying on my circle of prayer warriors to get me through it all. If I slip, I'm gone. What I mean is, if I lose my relationship with God, my entire purpose, and reason being here right now is pointless. Without God, I am completely lost. Lately, it's been difficult to communicate with Him---my thoughts are just racing with random 'to-do's and worries of tomorrow, when I know the Scriptures say not to worry about tomorrow----tomorrow will worry about itself. But I'm human. 

So my point to this long drawn out article is: stay strong. You're going to find a lot of "silent" division as well as publicly displayed division. On each side of the vaccinated---you're going to see people shunning one another due to personal believes and whatnot. If someone does not want to be in your life due to your personal beliefs, then that's their choice. You have no control over this. 

Remember this scripture and memorize it because now is the time that it's all coming to a head. So when you feel shunned for not doing as the world does, READ this scripture aloud if you have to: 

“If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you. Remember what I told you: ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted me, they will persecute you also."---John 15:18-20

You're even going to come across people who are close to you that pretend they are believers, or do things publicly to have others believe they are. It's great to scream on the mountaintops that you love God, but when it has a motive behind it, God knows your heart, and people can sense that from miles away. Don't be fooled by other believers telling you that what the world wants you to do is "good." It's not. It's not. Whatever the world wants, turn your back from it. We are not of this world. This is the time of great testing, and people you thought would never fail, are falling into the pit of deception right now. Pray for them, because they are doing exactly as the Bible said they would do. 

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Wednesday, April 28, 2021

For the Greater Good

These are my thoughts and beliefs alone, and nobody else's. I can't speak for everyone else---only myself. My opinions, research and beliefs do not reflect anyone I work for. Most people I work along with have different views than I do. So with that being said, it hurts to see so many people still at odds with one another over political and mostly, social issues. They want us to hate each other. Don't let them win. "Them" is subjective. Them isn't really subjective if you think about who's been screaming 'fear' into our homes, making us want to crawl back deeper into our caves, isolating ourselves from family and friends...isolating ourselves from the world itself. At first it seemed like a good idea. Two weeks, and we'll be back to normal. Well, now they're saying two years and we'll be back to "normal." And now, without your "special identification jabby card," you won't be able to come out and play with the rest of the kids. 

For instance, There was a volcano that went off in the Caribbean Island. They were evacuating their people on cruise ships---but wait---not you, unless you've been waxinnated. No, that wasn't autocorrect. Keywords apparently set off my blog for "false information" from the American CCP. 

"For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it." Matthew 16-25 

It's OK to Question Things That May Look Off

Last year, I had so many questions. I have a lot of nurse friends who also had a lot of questions, until they became silent. Social media, the dark web, videos that were pulled down revealed strange things and I couldn't fathom the thought of our own---our own officials would lie to us---our very own caregivers, nurses and doctors. They've uncovered a ton of videos of nurses and doctors dancing in empty emergency rooms, empty C0VlD units, and those who did come out with their 'story' were either fired, bribed to a higher position, or let go. Many nurses were laid off during the pandemic. All of this doesn't make a bit of sense. How can any nurse be laid off during the most crucial time of our lives? While in the hospital last September with sinus tachycardia, the maskless cardiologist was sitting next to my bed. I quickly grabbed my mask, and he grabbed my hand, and then said it wasn't needed. I asked him if there were many people in here with C0VlD. His answer was, "Only one person who is dying of cancer is here." 


"For nothing is hidden, except to be manifest; nor is anything secure except to come to light." --Mark 4:22

"Nothing is covered up that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known." --Luke 12:2

"Therefore, whatever you have said in the dark, shall be heard in the light, and what you have whispered in private rooms shall be proclaimed on the housetops." ---Luke 12:3 

"So have no fear of them, for nothing is covered that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known." --Matthew 10:26

Last night, we dined in a crowded restaurant with maskless people all around us. The rules were: when you sit down, you can unmask. When you stand up, please wear your mask. So does the virus only live above 5 ft? It didn't make any sense at all. If that doesn't somehow wake you up a little, I'm not sure what will. 

Stop Judging People

Here's the thing. Stop insulting people who have different beliefs and opinions than you. For instance, I know many people in my life who are getting waxinnated. They are good people. They are doing it to protect their health, as well as the people around them. They're doing it for the greater good. Their hearts are in the right place. Stop judging them and calling them "sheep" or insinuating that they are less intelligent than you are. It's wrong. Share your beliefs, but at what point does it come down to vicious name calling--- oh, and that one word that's always thrown around, "selfish" ---I get that a lot. People in general are scared, and they feel safer taking the jab. On the same respectful note, you have to be OK with those who are not waxxinated. If you are confident that your jab worked, then why worry about the non-vaxxers? 

Here's Where It Gets Muddled In With Religious Beliefs

There are many Christians who have read Revelations and the sign of times. They've been doing that for years and years, and some predicting things that haven't even happened, like Harold Camping, who said that the rapture was coming May 21, 2011 at 6pm. I went out on my balcony with a martini, waiting for our Savior to get me. I sat there for a few hours. Needless to say, a few hours later, I was intoxicated. Then he said, "Now it's on October 21st," and that's when people started to ignore him. Oddly enough, he passed away shortly after. 

Here's why Christians are scared to death of this waxxination. You can't blame them either. 

Let's start with Bill Gates having the patent number of 060606. That alone set many Christians ablaze. On top of that, the ingredients of Luciferin dissolved in 66.6 ml of distilled phosphate raised many eyebrows. 

And here's why: 

In Revelations chapter 13 in the Bible, it says, "The second beast was given power to give breath to the image of the first beast, so that the image could speak and cause all who refused to worship the image to be killed. It also forced all people, great and small, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive a mark on their right hands or on their foreheads, so that they could not buy or sell unless they had the mark, which is the name of the beast or the number of its name. This calls for wisdom. Let the person who has insight calculate the number of the beast, for it is the number of a man. That number is 666."

Before you start judging a Christian who refuses the jab for religious reasons, put yourself into their shoes. They sincerely feel as though they would lose their soul if they participate in this. It's not that they don't care about your health and society's overall health, they don't want the 'mark of the beast' on them. This is their belief. If the manufacturers didn't want to have any issues with this sort of thing, then why for the love of God, put those numbers and name associated with it? 

"...the name of the beast or the number of its name." It has both. Even if it was a huge coincidence --- people are looking for that clear sign. This is as clear as it gets and you cannot force them to think otherwise. They're not being selfish, they are being faithful. This world is not to be in higher regard to that of heaven. They would be literally sinning if they took the jab. Would you force an orthodox Jewish person to eat shellfish? Would you force someone who is Muslim to eat pork? This is how it is, but on a much more extreme level. Doing this --- there is no forgiveness. Once you are jabbed, you cannot get un-jabbed. 

The Tawk' Around the Webs

Now the vaxxers don't want to be around the un-vaxxers, but what's more interesting are the un-vaxxers warning us about the ones who did get the jab. So rumor has it, that the spike proteins in the vax are bio-identical to those in the human reproductive system which would make people sterile. As well as the fact that there has been significant proof that they "shed" and can pass to the unvaxxed. 

To believe or not to believe?

What and Should We Believe? 

For religious reasons and for those who are allergic to the flu shot, I think those people should be exempt. I have had friends and family invite me over, and assure me that it would be safe since everyone was waxxinated. The CDC itself even says that the waxxinated can still catch C0VlD. Some of these people are in high positions in hospitals. They're nurses, doctors, even CEOs. 

The irony is, if you are waxxinated, you can be in a large crowd without a mask. But, doesn't that pose a risk too? 

For me, and for myself, I am going to trust my God-given immunity and love on everyone, regardless of what their decision is. By judging the people you love who did get waxxinated, you are defeating the purpose. You can try to explain why you're not getting the jab, in hopes that they'll come to their own intelligent and spiritual decision, but that's all you can do. And by getting the jab does NOT mean that they are not intelligent. Stop calling them "stupid" and just respect them. I wish it went both ways. But we also need the same respect, not to be mocked for our religious views. We take it seriously. I would rather die, than to try and "save my life" with a needle that isn't even 100% effective. And that's my religious and personal views on this. 

You do you. If you feel uncomfortable around me, then that's your decision. There's always FaceTime and Zoom. 

Live your life. It's over in a blink of an eye. Love your friends, your family....if you can. 

Visit and support your local restaurants and eateries. Enjoy this day as we did back in 2019. 

Be mindful, respectful, and most of all, just love one another. 

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Tuesday, April 20, 2021

Can People Change?

Do you think a person can change? For instance, do you think a person with abusive behavior can change, or maybe someone who is unfaithful and cheats on their spouse can change their ways? What about someone who constantly lies? I honestly believe that people can change, but it takes time, and in most cases, it's impossible for a leopard to change its spots. Sometimes, it's just in their nature---imbedded and rooted---no chance for change. At what point do you accept that person as who they are, and meet them where they're at, or just simply, (or not so simply) walk away for good? I thought about this a lot these past couple of years. I'm a big believer in forgiveness. In the Bible, when Peter asked Jesus, "How often should I forgive my brother? As many as seven times?" Then Jesus told him, "I do not say to you seven times, but seventy times seven." This basically means, you are to always forgive, as God always forgives you. But shouldn't there be certain types of offenses that we need to say, "Okay, that's it---I'm done?" Jesus never does that to us, no matter what sin it is. As long as we repent and have deep sorrow for what we have done, we are forgiven. 

So then, my question would be: is the person who hurt us truly sorry? 

Words can be meaningless to the person hurting us. They think a little "song and dance" of how sorry they are will bring them back into our lives, but in their heart, they have no intention of changing. And while some are genuinely sorry for what they did, their true nature just cannot change. They go back like a rubber band, snapping right back to their previous nature. So then, how do we know when someone is truly sorry? I guess that's up for interpretation. There's no black and white answer on this. 

I would love to ask this question to those who read my blog. 

How do you forgive, and how often do you forgive? 

Also, if you decide to not forgive, what would be the ultimate offense? 

Repeat behavior? 

Lack of trust? 

Do you forgive seventy times seven? 

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Thursday, April 15, 2021

Is It the End Times? How Do We Know?

It can be frightening to hear a pastor or preacher talk about the end times. Some avoid churches just to attend another who will make them feel good. And that's okay. But at what point do you really want to hear the truth? And what is "truth?" It can be subjective. When I was 'still on the milk' -- a baby Christian if you will, I wanted to hear all of those 'feel good' messages, say for example, Joel Osteen. "Yes! You're gonna get that raise you prayed about---oh, and that bad report from the doctor is going to change! God is gonna give you so much money, you'll be able to pay off your house and buy your neighbor's as well!" 

Listen, I love to hear a feel good message as much as anyone, but this is just "gather 'em up and give 'em goosebumps" kinda preaching. It's technically called, "lukewarm sermons." They get you in the church pumped up to win the lottery, but what are you really desiring? Shouldn't that be more than what the world can offer? Remember, we are not of this world. Worldly things come and go, but eternal life is well....forever and ever. And I don't want to take any risks. 

When I started digging into the Bible looking for answers, I started reading about what the Bible predicted. This was about a few years before the pandemic. Even back then, I was reading Psalm 91 aloud.  This passage is for protection from evil, as well as protection from the deadly pestilence, which is the pandemic as some interpret it to be. 

Whenever someone goes into Revelations (the predictions from Jesus Himself about the end times) -- people think only think one thing: 'conspiracy theorist nut job.' I did at one point too. I couldn't believe people were predicting the end times, because no one knows the day nor hour---and that is written and true. But you can pinpoint events that had taken place as well as present and what's to come. Many people are waking up to the fact that the starting to look factual. My faith knows it's factual, but to some, it's just a "fairytale book." 

I felt like I kept getting pushed in a certain direction. I went through a lot of grief, transition, heartbreak, and as we all experienced, a pandemic. Everything in my life unfolded for a reason. I quit a lot of bad habits, including drinking. The message I kept receiving from God was in the Bible. 

“Be sober and alert. Your adversary the devil is prowling around like a roaring lion, looking for anyone he can devour.” —1 Peter 5:8

Most people wouldn't take this literally, because it actually just means to be on alert. But for me, drinking was an escape, a way to not deal with what I was feeling and it prevented me from fulfilling the depth of my spiritual life. I became numb to any of the messages God was giving me. 

The word “Alcohol” comes from the Arabic “al-kuhl” which means “BODY EATING SPIRIT”, and gives root origins to the English term for “ghoul”. In Middle Eastern folklore, a “ghoul” is an evil demon thought to eat human bodies, either as stolen corpses or as children. The words “alembic” and “alcohol”, both metaphors for aqua vitae or “life water” and “spirit”, often refer to a distilled liquid that came from magical explorations in Middle Eastern alchemy. In the words of writer and health enthusiast, Jason Christoff – “In alchemy, alcohol is used to extract the soul essence of an entity. Hence its’ use in extracting essences for essential oils, and the sterilization of medical instruments. By consuming alcohol into the body, it in effect extracts the very essence of the soul, allowing the body to be more susceptible to neighboring entities most of which are of low frequencies (why do you think we call certain alcoholic beverages “SPIRITS?”). That is why people who consume excessive amounts of alcohol often black out, not remembering what happened. This happens when the good soul (we were sent here with) leaves because the living conditions are too polluted and too traumatic to tolerate. The good soul jettisons the body, staying connected to a tether, and a dark entity takes the body for a joy ride around the block, often in a hedonistic and self-serving illogical rampage. Our bodies are cars for spirits. If one leaves, another can take the car for a ride. Essentially when someone goes dark after drinking alcohol or polluting themselves in many other ways, their body often becomes possessed by another entity.”----read more here.

When alcohol puts you in a low frequency, you're making the connection to you and God staticky. So to get closer to God, I eliminated things that would make it more difficult to communicate with Him. This goes for other sins in my life that I had to free myself from. I never felt so free in my life. 

With all that's going on right now, the pandemic, the push for the vaccines and all of the division among many people, we are seeing a horrible "new normal" we've never seen before in our lifetime. I will just say this... When you are in tune with God, your spirit will know. It won't doubt the message. It won't let anyone sway your mind or let you believe differently. You know when people tell you, "go with your gut?" Well, go with your gut, but most importantly, go with what your spirit tells you to. The small voice that lets you know what is true and what is false. Things are not what they appear. So the things that say they are true are false, in most non-biblical aspects. Families are divided, friends are divided, and now, the world seems to be divided and it's all coming to a head. 

This is all happening right now and those who are serious about their faith and afterlife need to read this: 

Matthew 10:21-42

Brothers and sisters will betray one another and have each other put to death. Parents will betray their own children, and children will turn against their parents and have them killed. Everyone will hate you because of me. But if you remain faithful until the end, you will be saved. 

When people mistreat you in one town, hurry to another one. I promise you that before you have gone to all the towns of Israel, the Son of Man will come. Disciples are not better than their teacher, and slaves are not better than their master. It is enough for disciples to be like their teacher and for slaves to be like their master. 

If people call the head of the family Satan, what will they say about the rest of the family? 

The One To Fear 

Don’t be afraid of anyone! Everything that is hidden will be found out, and every secret will be known.  Whatever I say to you in the dark, you must tell in the light. And you must announce from the housetops whatever I have whispered to you. Don’t be afraid of people. They can kill you, but they cannot harm your soul. Instead, you should fear God who can destroy both your body and your soul in hell. Aren’t two sparrows sold for only a penny? But your Father knows when any one of them falls to the ground. Even the hairs on your head are counted. So don’t be afraid! You are worth much more than many sparrows.

(Don't be afraid to speak the truth, even if people are attacking you for speaking up.) 

Telling Others about Christ 

If you tell others that you belong to me, I will tell my Father in heaven that you are my followers. But if you reject me, I will tell my Father in heaven that you don’t belong to me. 

Not Peace, But Trouble 

Don’t think that I came to bring peace to the earth! I came to bring trouble, not peace. I came to turn sons against their fathers, daughters against their mothers, and daughters-in-law against their mothers-in-law. Your worst enemies will be in your own family. 

(Loving your family more than God is considered idolatry.) 

If you love your father or mother or even your sons and daughters more than me, you are not fit to be my disciples. And unless you are willing to take up your cross and come with me, you are not fit to be my disciples. If you try to save your life, you will lose it. But if you give it up for me, you will surely find it. 


Anyone who welcomes you welcomes me. And anyone who welcomes me also welcomes the one who sent me. Anyone who welcomes a prophet, just because that person is a prophet, will be given the same reward as a prophet. Anyone who welcomes a good person, just because that person is good, will be given the same reward as a good person. And anyone who gives one of my most humble followers a cup of cool water, just because that person is my follower, will surely be rewarded.

And with some of the not so "feel good" messages the Bible can bring---it can actually be frightening for some. But don't be scared. 

Especially with all that's going on, please do your own research if you're a believer. Many will be deceived during these times. And oddly enough, as the Bible predicted, many things are coming into the light and secrets are being revealed. 

In my own research (as well as many others regarding the vaccinations... 

“And who had suffered much under many physicians, and had spent all that she had, and was no better but rather grew worse.” —Mark 5:26 

 “He required everyone—small and great, rich and poor, free and slave—to be given the mark on the right hand or on the forehead. And no one could buy or sell anything without that mark, which was either the name of the beast (Luciferin) or the number representing his name. (Patent # & ml of dosage: 6.66ml.) Wisdom is needed here. Let the one with understanding solve the meaning of the number of the beast, for it is the number of a man. His number is 666.” —Rev 13:16-18

These are times of testing, times of faith and checking your internal inventory. Is it in you to live as the Bible says, or will you live as the world tells you to live? You have to pick one. I'm hoping this message falls on those who have been questioning this. 

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight."---Proverbs 3:5-6

My only takeaway on this is to pray for discernment and understanding. Each time you pick up your Bible, pray for understanding---true understanding of the message and watch God work miracles in your life, as well as reveal the truth of it all. And be ready for it. Be prepared. God bless you.

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Friday, February 05, 2021

Your Weakness & Vulnerability Is Your Strength

Once in a while, I get some people asking me, "Why do you write such personal things up on your blog and on social media?" Some people, and even some family members are embarrassed by my 'oversharing' of personal struggles with anxiety, depression and grief. I always tell them, "It's my purpose. I am here to help people feel less alone." As God once impressed on me, that I am supposed to "Do it for the One"----do it even if only one person reads what I write, as well as do it for "The One" --- God Himself. Because God is in each and every once of us. So by sharing my weaknesses, God's strength is made even that much stronger, especially for the other person seeking help. If someone lost a parent, I can share my experience and how I still cope through it. If someone suffers with anxiety attacks, I can tell them about my coping skills and hopefully assist them and prevent them going straight into crisis mode. I truly believe that's my purpose here.

It's Okay To Be Vulnerable 

Becoming more vulnerable makes you more relatable. Showing your weaknesses actually makes you stronger. Paul quotes Jesus who said, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.” It’s ok if we don’t have it ‘all together.’ It shows our humanness. If you prefer keeping your personal issues to yourself, then you probably have another purpose in life. That's okay. But it's also okay to relate to people and let them see the humanness in you. Some people I know are so insecure, they can't let anyone see that a day of weakness. 

I remember a heated argument I had with someone a while back. I remember them saying to me, "You need to take your meds and see a psychiatrist. Check and check. Meanwhile, this person self medicates by drinking a fifth of whiskey every night along with whatever beer to chase it down. During one of his drunken rages, he tore someone apart and never apologized to them or even considered being held accountable for his poor choices and behavior. Without judgment, I said, "There's nothing wrong with seeking professional help or taking the needed medication for whatever you're suffering with." Immediately he went into self-defense mode and said, "I don't need that!" And I reminded him that I was only speaking for myself. It was as if he had forgotten what he said to me. The psychological projection was explosive at that point. He knew he needed help. 

A Strong Person Admits Their Fears and Feelings

"Oh I could never be that open." Why? Isn't there a possibility that someone out there in the world needs your kind of help because it's exactly what they're going through right now? There's still so much stigma when it comes to mental health issues. People don't want to be seen as "crazy" or that they're having a nervous breakdown. Well, maybe if you show them your "weakness" they may see the strength in you by admitting to it---by admitting that you are human. It's like an AA director who has never touched a drink in his/her life. How could they possibly relate to the people in the AA group? They can't. They can do all the studying they want in the Big Book and read up on the Twelve Steps, but they truly can't be of genuine help if they hadn't gone through it themselves. That's why I can't stand 'textbook psychology.' I want someone who has been in the muck of it all---someone who has been there and overcome their struggles, with a few slip and falls here 'n there. That's what makes them real---that's what makes them helpful. 

2 Corinthians 12:8-10 

Paul's Thorn and God's Grace …Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is perfected in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest on me. That is why, for the sake of Christ, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Sharing your struggles not only makes you approachable, but it even enables you to reach out to those who need your kind of help. Even just sharing your story, your testimony or explain to people the struggles you've gone through will make people feel less alone and alienated. I once listened to someone's testimony and thought to myself, "I can't believe they went through the same thing I did!" I truly thought I was the only one. It gives you a feeling of oneness with those who open up and share their hardships. It's not that 'misery loves company,' but it's more about, 'I need your kind of strength right now.' Because usually, that person has either overcome it, or still trying to get through it. Both are admirable, because it's the goal of getting better, getting healthier in mind and spirit. 

So when you start to hesitate sharing a post, even as small as, "Having a bad day today," --- watch how many people say, "Me too!" Or they'll tell you about their day. You'll also want to tell them how that day turned out to be a beautiful 'tomorrow.'

Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.” --Psalm 30:5. 

We're Only Here For a Short While 

Get rid of the bitterness, resentments and unforgiveness. When we go back home to see Jesus, none of these trivial problems will matter anymore. Why not get along here on earth, while we're still alive? I love that quote where it says, bitterness is like drinking poison, but expecting the other person to die. The only person we hurt by not forgiving someone is ourselves. The mental anguish and inner anxiety that comes upon us when we are still fuming over what someone did, can and will affect us physically. I know for myself, when I use to harbor resentment, my heart rate would go up for a long while, until it was time to go to sleep. My stomach would be in knots and I wasn't happy. Meanwhile, the person I was angry with, had no clue I was harboring these negative feelings. So they were living their happy lives 'as is' and here I was, suffering from my own internal conflict, playing the same event over and over inside my mind. Never let anyone rent space inside your mind. 

Grief & Booze

We are going to lose people in our lives. That's just inevitable. I remember when my mom was dying of cancer, I struggled with anticipatory grief. I remember one afternoon, she heard me sobbing in the other room upstairs. I didn't know anyone could hear me. I didn't even think I was being loud. She called me and said, "Debbie, come downstairs and lay next to me." I cried even harder. I couldn't help it. She knew I was grieving over her already. I had to lie to her --- make someone up like, "Oh, it's okay, I'm just having bad pain." I wasn't. I was crying over the mere thought of losing her. Mothers know these things. 

I self-medicated. I didn't want to feel the grief. I wanted the temporary fix of feeling numb, happy, forgetting 'what was' instead of dealing with 'what is.' But once the alcohol wore off, the sadness and anxiety came creeping in like a thief in the night, stealing all my joy for the next day. So, I'd do it again that same night. It was like this torturous and vicious cycle of self-torment, just to get a few hours of numbing happiness---a faux kinda joy.  So now, I save my wine time only on one day of the week with a nice dinner, and no more than one or two drinks. I stopped "self-medicating" and now, I have eight hours of sleep under my belt most nights, and beautiful hangover-free mornings to enjoy my coffee and a beautiful sunrise. Is life prefect? Hell no! But when those problems come barreling down on me, I deal with them much differently, with less stress. When I drank a lot, my heart rate would skyrocket up to 200 bpm, especially if a problem came up. And now, no adrenaline rush---just a sober mind dealing with it in a healthier way. I'm not telling anyone not to drink---I'm suggesting to evaluate how you feel after the alcohol as worn off, and especially how you handle stressful situations while under the influence. Compare it to where you are sober. It's quite an eye-opener. 

Masking Your Pain & Anxiety 

I've been masking my pain and anxiety since I was twelve years old. Yep, I have been drinking since I was twelve, and I didn't quite stop the madness until my mid-forties. (It's never too late right?) I never knew what it was like to deal with life situations sober. I held a lot in and self-medicated my way through life, through alcohol and marijuana. After being hospitalized for marijuana at the age of sixteen -- yes, for good ol' weed -- it made my heart rate go over 200 bpm. I never touched that stuff again. I went through some traumatic events in my younger years, and tried to drown them all out by drinking it away. And now, I'm finally dealing with all of these past issues in my mid-forties. Ok, ok, ok, my late forties. But still, why did I wait so long? It took other traumatic events to make me realize, "Hey, maybe this coping mechanism isn't so healthy after all?" 

Pray It Into Existence 

Every single morning, before my feet hit the floor, I say something positive---a prayer of gratitude to God Himself. "Thank you for letting me rest and wake up this morning. Today is the day the Lord has made, I will be glad and rejoice in it!" And that alone, will usually set the tone for the day. A positive affirmation and prayer before even getting out of bed is the most powerful thing you can do to kickstart your day. You thought it, spoke it, and it will manifest. Speak it to God---not "the universe." Listen, believe what you want to believe, but praying to the universe for things to manifest is like praying to the street to bring you to your destination. Who made the street? Humans. Thank the humans who made the street, just as you would thank God for making the universe. 

No doubt, there's going to be unanswered prayers, but for good reason. If it's in God's will, it will be given. But sometimes, we go after things that are not in our best interest. If we were to get everything we wanted, we may end up in a worse-off mindset and place. God protects us and asks us to trust His will. Even Jesus asked His father to take this cup away from Him---to not go through with the dreaded and planned death of his sacrifice. Jesus was so scared, that he sweated out blood. So He knows as a human what it's like to be fearful, and to not get what you wanted. But God knows what was needed. Big difference. 

Even when you find yourself in the worst kind of emotional or physical "life storm" --- thank God for the storm, for it'll make you that much stronger. Resisting it will only cause you pain. Just say, "I trust you God," when you find yourself in the most uncomfortable or painful situation. Watch what happens. I had to learn this the hard way. By trusting Him and accepting 'what is' -- you change the atmosphere around you. You literally kick the devil right in his face. 

Don't ever feel "less than" by your weaknesses. This is the ingredient that gives you strength! 

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Friday, January 29, 2021

Kicking Anxiety In the Face During the Pandemic

If it's not one thing, it's another, right? One problem goes away, and another one takes its place. It's life's little "bully" tugging at your backpack straps. Two steps forward, and then next thing you know, you're down on the ground struggling to get back up again. What I'm learning through my own faith, is to trust God in every situation in your life. One of my purposes here is to struggle through certain things, and find out what works best to eliminate it, or to lessen the blows at least. I try to figure out the best solution, and then to share it with others when I have either overcome it, or have gotten better coping with whatever it is. So today I want to share what helped me survive the entire year of 2020. 

My struggles actually started way before 2020, but my heightened sense of fear, as well as other ailments that followed it, like a racing heart and palpitations, which started after my mom died back in 2017. I also suffered from loneliness, because I shut many people out of my life. Who would wanna deal with someone grieving so deeply anyway? Without missing a beat (no pun) --- every morning my heart would race so incredibly fast. Sometimes it actually would hit the 200 bpm mark. That's when I couldn't take it anymore and had to be seen either by my cardiologist or be taken to the ER. And yes, I've had a cardiologist ever since I have experienced anxiety.

I thought my life would end. As a child, the worst fear of my life was to lose my mother. What would I do? Who would I laugh with? Who would I talk to? Who would totally "get me?" 

Anxiety During the Pandemic 

When the pandemic hit, every little sniffle, cough or tickle in my throat was COVID. And then one day, I finally came down with it, realizing my other worst fear came to pass: a pandemic. My mom would always make fun of me whenever we heard stories of the bird flu in other countries or when Ebola struck Africa, eventually hitting the states. My mom would tell me to get my HAZMAT suit on, or to invest in a bubble for myself. As a kid, I wouldn't dare take a sip out of anyone's glass, nor would I share anything with anyone. I don't know where this behavior came from, but I even had a special fork just for me---even if it was sterilized in the dishwasher. I couldn't use anyone else's fork. So the thought of germs, or getting sick freaked me out.

As an adult, it lessened, but I still held onto my germaphobic behaviors. When people speak about the 'man cold' ---- they're speaking about me. I even have an intercom just in case my vocal cords fail to work. When I get the flu, my vocal cords actually give out due to ending up with pleurisy and asthma attacks. So even that in itself is scary to me, especially being alone, so if I need to call for help, I have no voice. Another "phobia." 

With all that in mind, you can imagine where my little noggin took me, when the only thing the news had on was "THE CORONA VIRUS UPDATE" --- and of course, watching Gov. Cuomo's daily briefings. 

Pray Without Ceasing

For whatever reason, at night, I would wake up gasping for air, heart racing, feeling nauseous. I would try to do meditation videos on YouTube, or splash my face with cold water, but nothing helped. My last resort which should've been my first resort was to pray. It's funny how sometimes we tend to forget God when we are experiencing problems. We want to do it on our own, we want to control the situation and fix it ourselves, but realistically, and I can only speak for myself, I can do nothing apart from God. 

So I started to pray more.

I would hear certain songs, or I would read in the Bible similar messages that said, "Look up to me." And so, when I would wake up with that racing heart once again, it resonated in my mind, "Look up to me." I literally would look up, see God (visualizing Him) and automatically, my heart rate lowered. Sometimes, I'd go into the spare bedroom and talk to Him---telling Him everything that's going on in my busy little brain. I'd check my heart rate and from a 130 bpm episode, it would go down to a 77 bpm --- odd that it would always fall at 77, but it made me feel even that much calmer. 

So, my reliance on God taught me another thing in recovering from this anxiety. It taught me to also pray without ceasing. I don't pray just when I'm experiencing anxiety, but I pray even before my feet hit the floor in the morning. I thank Him for another day. I talk to Him throughout the day. I keep getting messages of "I am always with you." Again, as I said in a previous post, "Emmanuel" means, "God is with us." He never leaves us alone. We leave Him alone. So to say that I'm lonely today wouldn't be quite accurate. I am not lonely, I am eager to see my family and friends again on a regular basis again. 

Meditation Isn't Only For Spiritual Gurus

With the practice of praying without ceasing, comes meditating, even when you are feeling calm. I only meditated when I felt anxiety. Since I was suffering with anxiety attacks every single day, my adrenaline was at an all time high. So the slightest upset would bring my heart rate skyrocketing. By meditating every single day for at least 30 minutes, you develop a calmness about you, just like building a muscle---you are building up your peace. 

For instance, since I pray and meditate every single day (even when calm) -- I had an unexpected emergency here at home that would've put me in such a state of panic, that I probably would've needed the medics. But as I calmly responded to the emergency happening, I realized that my "emergency" was just a minor inconvenience. I blew things out of proportion most of the time. When I came back into my house, my heart was calm. There was no spike in my heart rate, no shortness of breath, I was just peaceful. My adrenaline didn't flood me out, nor did my thoughts turn into explosive "what ifs." This stuff really works.

Listen, I ain't no 'zen master' or spiritual guru, but this stuff really works. Whether or not you believe in this or believe in that or don't believe at all, there truly is something to this. No therapist, medication or a sip of wine could do what praying and meditating did for me. And most people think of meditation as some strange practice that you have to be bent in the shape of the pretzel chanting "ommmmmmmm" on a mountain top somewhere. Meditating can be just focusing in on your breath, and how your body feels at that moment----to be in the 'now' and even do some grounding techniques. It can be listening to a guided meditation on Youtube with some visualization techniques to get your stress levels lower. My heart rate is usually around 75-80 bpm, but when I meditate, it goes down to 55 bpm---I trust me---I'm no athlete. Sometimes it gets so low that I scare myself for being too calm. But it has improved my sleeping habits, as well as my everyday routines. 

I figured I'd share that with you, in case you're struggling with panic attacks and not knowing what to do or where to go. With practice, you'll notice that even at your most chaotic upheavals will be dealt with in a calmer way. I couldn't believe it. I still struggle with anxiety, but I am coping with it much better. Remember, courage isn't then absence of fear, but the triumph over it. And with God, all things are possible. 

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Wednesday, January 13, 2021

Be At Peace With One Another, and Yourself

It's been a tragic ride this past year. The truth is, nobody knows the truth. Whether you're on the left, or on the right, or somewhere in between those thin lines of political entanglement, it's still disheartening to see our world, our government, our own people, crumble into pieces, shattered like a broken mirror, giving us painful shards of bad luck. Whether you are disappointed that our president is no longer in power, or disappointed that our Capitol got raided by protesters, they're all valid feelings. It's okay to feel what you feel. 

I read this quote from Lori Deschene that says, "You don't have to be positive all the time. It's perfectly okay to feel sad, angry, frustrated, scared and anxious. Having feelings doesn't make you a negative person. It makes you human." 

It Is All Out of Our Control

I've learned to stop internalizing circumstances outside of my being. This is something I cannot control. I can only control my reactions to it. Some would say that by not acting out in anger, is being part of the problem. I only have control over myself. I will not try to "fix the votes" or to try to "censor anyone's freedom of speech." I can only do me. How much truth do we really know to anything that's happening out there? This is where people start grasping for theories, hoping it'll be true. This is also when people start lying in order to get their way. For myself, I don't rely on anything but God. God is still on the throne and whatever people want to do with their power, or lack thereof, have a go at it, because I refuse to be apart of something that's so vile, so disgusting and evil. 

I don't mean to be vague, but I'm trying to make a point. I hear a lot of my friends saying that they're stressed out and they can't sleep or that their heart is racing all the time. Their endless hours of watching the news has made them a walking nerve. I can relate. In recent times, I learned one thing: GOD IS WITH US. "Emmanuel" also stands for, "God is with us." It’s a word written on countless Christmas cards throughout the centuries and sung in some of our most-loved carols. In Scripture, it first appears in Isaiah 7:14, which says, “Therefore the Lord Himself will give you a sign; The virgin will conceive, and give birth to a Son, and will call Him Emmanuel” (NIV). 

I can only tell you what worked for me.

Releasing the FEAR

Most of my life, I struggled with anxiety disorder. Dis-order and dis-ease ---it's all relative. Whatever you want to call it, the truth remains that anxiety and panic is based on fear. False Evidence Appearing Real. I finally got sick and tired of feeling sick and tired from the stress and anxiety. Not to say I don't get anxiety from time to time, but I sat with God for great lengths of time and learned a lot through prayer and meditating on the Word. Through words of others, as well as the Bible and even through dreams, I keep being reminded that I am not alone. Even through isolated times, when I haven't seen a soul besides my better half in weeks, I know that I am not alone. "Fear not,"---why? Because "God is with you." The thought of an isolated day (even if I have work to do) will set my panic off the night before. I was mocked a few weeks back on a duel live stream by an atheist, who told me that I'm pretending to have an imaginary friend. The "imaginary sky daddy," they call God. Well, all I can say is, eternity is a long time to risk being wrong. And my faith at this point is more of a, "I know that I know that I know," kinda faith. Nothing can shake it. Ever. 

The End Times

I talk about this a lot because I sincerely believe this with all of my heart. I kept receiving these dreams around 4am. I would hear trumpets blowing and a beautiful, androgynous angelic voice screaming out, "Wake up! Wake up!!!" And on the second "wake up" --- I heard the voice loud and clear while being awake. In Luke 21:11 it tells us, "There will be great earthquakes, famines and pestilences in various places, and fearful events and great signs from heaven." Haven't we seen enough to know that these are huge signs from above? And whether or not this will happen one hour, weeks, months, years or decades from now, no one will ever know the hour or day. But the Bible is clear on the events itself. Way before this pandemic, and even before I lost my mom, I had given my life to Christ. I was still on the milk, but as I progressed, I have never felt so strongly about my faith as I do today. I can truly say that I am 100% ready for the end of times----this does not mean that I want to end my life. This means, that without a doubt, I am not afraid of Jesus' second coming. Many Christians are. Every knee will bow, as it says. 

Are you ready?

Suffering to Help Others

Through my own suffering, grief, anxiety and depression, I am now able to help those dealing with similar issues. Again, I still suffer from time to time, but it wasn't like it used to be. My panic attacks would send me right into the ER, fearful of death. I was scared of simple things, like being home alone, thinking, "What happens if I have a heart attack and drop dead and nobody knows for hours?" What if?? And if that happened to any of us, we should still not fear that. What's the worse thing that could happen? You enter another world where God brings you back home? My point is, I am (still) in the process of being unafraid of death itself. If I'm not afraid of death itself and know that God is with me all the time, then I won't be afraid of anything else in this world. So that in itself, keeps me calmer, more peaceful and the little things that used to annoy me have absolutely no affect on me. With that being said, I like to share my experiences to others who are having similar struggles. Our struggles are meant to help and not harm. Sometimes if I'm having an off day, those little annoyances can creep in, and that's when it's time to reel it in and pray. Don't leet the devil get a foothold.

Soul Wounds 

Our mental health has much to do with our minds, but it also has a lot to do with our souls as well. When you're hurt and you refuse to forgive anyone in your life, you end up hurting yourself and possibly others. As they say, hurt people hurt people. Through your own pain, you can end up hurting somebody else, due to the pent up resentment and bitterness.  "He heals the brokenhearted, binding up their wounds"---this scripture means that those soul wounds that you are carrying around can be lifted, if you release them. I've stopped caring about the small stuff---not to be mistaken with not undermining other people's feelings, but not sweating the small stuff. And by small stuff: engaging in any drama, or fueling somebody else's anger against another person just because things didn't go my way. I stopped caring about what people thought of me or if they judged me for spending time with so 'n so----what other people think of me and what I do is none of my business. That's on them. I accept it. 

Our world is crumbling before our very eyes. There's more division than ever before. A friend told me, "I have eliminated so many people out of my life, even my own family," due to different political views. How incredibly sad is that? And you wanna know something? Politics don't care about you. Politics doesn't love you. Your family loves you, and most of all, God loves you. What's more important than that? So while you're literally deleting people out of your life, keep in mind that we are all in this tragic movie together....together, yet alone. And maybe it doesn't have to be alone. Maybe, you can actually connect with your loved ones, be fearless and reach out to those you think may reject you. Keep politics out of your conversations and talk about what you used to chat about. Stop letting the government destroy your family. Stop letting the media crush every good thing you once known to be good. Stop letting the media and the government try to instill fear in you. 

Fear not....and you know why.

"Be at peace with one another” – Mark 9:50

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