Lately, I’ve noticed that a lot of my own friends are signed up with Myspace. To me, I thought it was a juvenile website based on meeting friends and friends and more friends. True, you do meet tons of new people, but I didn’t get the base of it. It has blog options as well. It also has an area where people leave comments to you right on your web page. This I didn’t get- because I thought, “Well what are they commenting to?” They’re basically just ‘hellos’ and little funny cartoons they leave and just a reminder of who’s thinking about you or who wants you to comment on their page. Depends.
Anyway, I made fun of my friend for having this. I mean, we’re in our thirties and it seemed sort of ridiculous to even entertain the idea of putting a web page out there like that. Well, I signed up. Not only that, but I’ve came in contact with old friends from high school, and friends I haven’t seen in so long! It was kind of nice to reconnect. I’ve also met some really interesting people on there. There’s all sorts of musicians, artists and writers trying to get noticed and tons of creative people who just love to network. This Myspace isn’t bad after all.
Then I had a thought. Why not promote my book to those who I feel need to hear what I went through? Why not add some people on my list and see how they feel about their comfort zone about being homosexual? You can send bulletins out to all of them with videos or a message reminding them that God isn’t something to be scared of. A healthy fear of God is one thing, but to be too afraid to come to Him due to the pressures of being gay is something the devil wants you to think…as well as some people.
One nice girl named Tiff wrote:
“The concept of duality between homosexuality and Christianity has always perplexed me. Many arguments have been and will continue to be waged about the issue of homosexuality based upon Leviticus 18:22 where it says in the bible that a man lying with another man as he would lay with his wife is an abomination. This is where my confusion begins. In the eyes of God, or so I’ve been told, the way I am is an abomination. But, on the same token, it also says in the bible that God knows you and everything about you before you are even conceived. He knows every thought you will think, everything you will say and do, and he has a grand divine plan for your life. So taking this into consideration as well, it is confusing to me that God, in his divine plan, would basically set me up to fail in his eyes. It doesn’t make sense, from what I have heard about him, He doesn’t make mistakes like that. So to avoid all this existential confusion, I have chosen to refrain from spirituality in its entirety. That’s not to say that I’m a raging atheist, or that I don’t want to believe in God. It’s just that I don’t know where to begin sorting out the truth from all the homophobic religious hypocrisy that has plagued Christianity for so long that it’s become part of the very fabric of its beliefs.
Nice blog though, kind of uplifting.
I honestly didn’t think I would people with such deep thoughts on Myspace. I didn’t think it existed. I basically judged the site due to it’s reputation for being “juvenile”. I was pleasantly surprised to see someone on there with such a great thought process who has an incredible opened mind.
I wrote back to her:
“And that's the whole entire thing Tiff- where Christianity gets so scary! People draw away from God due to what other people have to say about it.
Fact: Leviticus does say that homosexuality is an abomination, however, it also states that eating shellfish such as shrimp, lobster, clams, mussels, oysters are all an abomination to men. Even if you sit on a couch with a woman who has her period- that is detestable to God. That's all in Leviticus.
Here's where the line draws though... Leviticus is in the Old Testament. Christians and people who are not of the Jewish culture go by the New Testament. The old doesn't apply anymore. The Old Testament has books that due reference to history- so it's good to refer back to it for history and what mankind has gone through. But as believers of Christ, we go by the New Testament, due to the salvation and the forgiveness that God gave to us. We are all sinners. Not one of us are perfect in God's eyes, however, God's love for us is perfect. It's so perfect that He gave His only son to die for us on the cross in the Christian/Catholic beliefs. (As well as other religions that are based upon the trinity.)
What about premarital sex between heterosexual couples? That in itself is a sin in God's eyes. How many people do you know wait until marriage before they seal the deal? Some fundamentalists and other radical Christians will throw in the argument that sex should be between two married people- and sex outside of marriage is sinful. Well, I am sure that if the gay and lesbian community were able to get married, we would. But the state won't allow us. "People" won't allow us. And that's the big difference. Are we listening more to people? Or are we trying to tune into God more?
Through my spiritual experiences Tiff, I know that God accepts all of us. He knows our hearts and sees our motives. He made every little hair on our head- and you're absolutely right, He wouldn't set you up to fail. The devil does that. God loves you more than anything and He knows the struggles that we all have- whether we're gay or straight. We all have our cross to bear.
In my opinion and theory, the devil plants the seed of fear to come to God, because we're gay. "God will punish you!!!" That's something that the devil does, and it's something that people do all the time. If my own mom and dad accepts and loves me as a lesbian living with her partner, don't you think God is able to do the same? Are we saying that God's inadequate? He's perfect- He's GOD! So, hopefully you can another point of view regarding Christianity. People make it scary...not God.
Thanks so much for your comment!
Hopefully, my page will encourage those who are confused about Christianity. I also don’t want people to think that I’m trying to convert others into being a Christian- I just want those who are weak in faith and those who are confused to know that God loves them. There are so many people who are atheist and/or into Satanism on Myspace. I even tagged those people to be on my list of friends, hoping they will come to my site finding a little piece of mind. Maybe they can relate to the torment of struggling with life’s circumstances, being homosexual- being a sinner in general and having a love for God at the same time. Maybe they can relate to the pressures of others trying to tell you what’s right and wrong. Shouldn’t we go to God for approval? We rely so much on other people for approval, that we forget about the most important thing…God.
So if you’re interested in taking a peek at my page, click here. I swore I wouldn’t let any of my blogspot friends know about this page, but it’s not so bad after all.