Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Gratitude

The world is not always a peaceful place to live. Encounters with fear, worry, and difficult circumstances encroach regularly. But it isn’t Gods desire to allow the negative aspects of life to steal your peace, joy, hope, and confidence. God wants to help you deal with your fears and worries. When you fully understand that the battles and struggles of life are not yours to fight alone, you experience divine peace and gain the strength to live your life fully.

This peace from God is unlike the natural peace you experience in your life. That type of peace fluctuates with circumstances. Divine peace is dependent on your relationship with God, and as long as you are living in close communion with Him, it is a constant in your life, no matter what is going on around you. God’s peace supernaturally calms your fears and serves as an assurance of his presence. What a blessing!

Divine peace in your heart and mind is not subject to the whims of circumstance and fortune. It is a true and lasting peace that grows as you learn to trust God. If your life is filled with turmoil, ask God to fill you with divine peace. Your circumstances won’t necessarily change, but you discover an inner confidence and know that God will be there to see you through whatever life has in store. ~GRQ Inc.

It’s safe to say that I’ve been living under feelings of guilt, fear, depression and anxiety. All of us go through these emotions- I know that. For me, it's a matter of getting rid of these feelings that plague me. I need it to go away. These past few days, I’ve realized that these feelings will not go away on its own. I have to consciously make an effort to deal with what I have on my plate. I have to stop being so independent, and more dependant on God. (Independent in terms of trying to fix things or make them right- on my own, without God's help.) Even if things never change in my favor, I have to make other options to make myself happy.

All of these negative emotions causes extreme lassitude on my entire body. I’m constantly fatigued, worn out and have no desire to do the things I normally love to do. My writing has been suffering and my love for music (playing guitar & song writing) has come to a halt. Usually, this time of year, I look around for a part time job bartending for extra money during the holidays. I have absolutely no desire. I was about to apply for one particular job, which I know pays really well, and I just walked away from it.

There’s so many things in life that some of us take for granted. I know I do. I don’t realize at the time, and then when I’m calm, content and at peace (which is rare), I find myself appreciating all the things I nearly forgot about. Everything seems bad at the time. Things aren’t going right, or things aren’t moving as fast as we want them to. It basically boils down to patience with me. I don’t have an ounce in my body. But, while waiting for God’s gifts to come, I simply forget what’s right in front of me for the meantime and for the rest of my life hopefully.

1. My family. They’re always making me laugh. Laughter is the key to my heart. They have helped me through so much. For that, I am thankful.

2. I sometimes forget the love and support I get from my friends. They always encourage me and lend me their ear when I need to vent. Thank you.

3. When I was about five years old, I always wondered if I’d have my parents when I was in my thirties. I do. And for that, I am very thankful that I have the both of them, healthy and full of spunk.

4. The place I live now. I rant and rave about being too close to comfort to the parental units, but to tell you the truth, it’s truly a blessing that they are so close by. I’m so thankful that I have a roof over my head and a great place to stay.

5. I’m glad I went through all the negative experiences that I’ve encountered. It made me stronger and it definitely had me learning quite a few things about situations…and about myself. God puts you in situations for a reason. If He brings you to it…He’ll see you through it. I totally believe that.

6. I can’t emphasize enough what a joy it is to see the sunrise every single morning outside of my window, beyond the mountains. When I lived in a condo, I didn’t get to see this gorgeous view. It’s breathtaking.

7. My black coffee every morning. I know it’s a small thing to be grateful for, but without it, I’m a grouch! So other people in my life may be grateful for that too.

8. For years, I was legally blind. I decided to get lasik surgery. They told me that my cornea was so thin, that there was a chance they may cut through it by mistake, leaving me blind. I’m so glad I see 20/20 now…and my corneas are just fine! So I am grateful for my beautiful female surgeons who did a fantastic job! (I didn’t know they were that gorgeous until after the operation!)

9. My ability to write and express myself on my blog as well as in my books. I’m so glad I have a few hobbies, like playing guitar, song writing, photography as well as art to keep my mind occupied. These are the gifts that God gave to me, and I’m so thankful for that.

10. People I have met through blogging. Yes, I am extremely grateful for all of you who read me, and give me advice, suggestions, opinions and your thoughts. It’s practically better than therapy! I can’t tell you how much I have learned from all of you through your writings, your comments- even if they were opposing to my thoughts. So thank you for sticking it out with me and still reading my blog!

So, what are you thankful for in your life?

Happy Thanksgiving!

29 comments:

Anonymous said...

so for some odd reason i had never visited your blog but here i am touristing these colorful words... i'll try come by more often!!

QUASAR9 said...

I'm thankful for the Sun and the warm glow of the sunlight
I'm thankful for the fresh rain, and the magic in each rain drop
I'm thankful family, friends and loved ones are all well
I'm thanful that I am war and fed, and with a roof over my head
I'm thankful that I have you here to tell, you are one magic spell!

Happy Thanksgiving to you Debs and Your family and loved ones.

Catch said...

I am thankful for many things...family, friends,a loving God, my home, my health. I am also thankful that you are feeling better. Sometimes its darkest before the dawn.Now put a lovely smile on your face and have a wonderful Thanksgiving! Enjoy your family and eat way too much!!! lol. I do it every year!!! Huggs to you Deb ~

Miss 1999 said...

You know, Deb, that was such a good post. I know letting go of the negative thoughts, emotions, ect... that are plaguing my life, I have to CHOOSE to let go of, and let God in more... I've pushed God away lately, and I feel so bad for that. I've been extremely aggervated with my husband, and extremely attracted to another *married* man I work with. I need to do what's right, and let all of this go- it's just so hard...

Anyway, enough with my drama, I hope you have a Happy Thanksgiving!*Hugs*

Rajesh Dangi said...

well done!!

GW Mush said...

Peace is flowing like a river,

my potatoes holding gravy like a dam...

gravy is flowing like a riverrr,

cranberry sauce is flowing like a riverrr... and down along side my chin...

pumpkin pie is melting on my tongue..

My belly so full of thankful food.

Now Im sleepy and I will drool like a riverrrr... and down along side my chinnnn.

Sometimes Saintly Nick said...

I used to practice a spiritual discipline each evening in which I would write in my journal each of the blessings I encountered during the day. I think I need to return to doing it. Thanks for the reminder.

Anonymous said...

A christian lesbian whose blog causes side effects and requires a doctor's note?

You are my new role model.

Yes,I will be your fag daddy!

samuru999 said...

Hi Deb
Love this post!
You make me smile Deb!
Thank you for the smiles!

The first thing I am thankful for is
that I did not burn my poor little fingers too badly when I was taking my pie out the oven tonight...it seems I always burn myself whenever I am baking! Ouch!

All the other things I give thanks for
are...

I am thankful for each and every day I
awaken to this wonderful and magnificent life I have with my hubby!

I am thankful to live in Colorado..
and am able to partake in so many
oudoor activities (hiking, biking, running) that add so much joy to my life!

I am thankful for my wonderful daughter
and son...they are my true treasures in life!

I am thankful for the special gift of my poetry...it has to come from God...
as I am able to write words that sometime astound me!

I am thankful for all the friends I have had over the years that have made my life so very special and beautiful!

I could go on forever Deb...
but, that is enough!

Oh, one last thing...
I am thankful I was finally able to
reach you on the telly (it pays of to be persistent) and thankful we had such a nice talk! (loved it!)

Good-night dearie!
Have a most beautiful and wonderful
Thanksgiving Day tomorrow!

Sending very special ((hugs))
all the way from magnificent Colorado!

Margie

Geek said...

Happy Thanksgiving!

Nancy said...

I'm thankful for my black coffee, too. It's a comfort thing...even the scent of it wafting through the house. Reminds me of being little at my grandparents' house.

This year I'm thankful my baby survived to be two and didn't die of heart defects like a lot of his peers with his syndrome do. We are truly blessed.

There are many, many things I'm thankful for this year.

I'm wishing you peace and all of the happiness the holidays can possibly bring you!

Anonymous said...

Thanks for the visit!

I'm sure we'll be exchanging lots of comments!

Love the blog.

Heather said...

Happy Thanksgiving, Deb. Hope you have a great weekend.

C-dell said...

I am Thankful for my family, my girlfriend, my ability to go to college, I am grateful for the life I have been blessed with. Check out my blog sometime. I think that might enjoy it.

kathi said...

I'm a broken record, but I'm thankful for the people who didn't give up witnessing to me many, many years ago and led me to Christ. I'm thankful for my kids, and that I'm able to take care of them. I'm thankful that I realize how blessed I am and that I don't take things for granted. I'm thankful for YOU, because sweetie, this last year you have been a huge blessing to me. I love you.

GW Mush said...

Im thankful that Jesus saves dirty rotten heathens and stuff.

ann said...

Deb... what a beautiful heartfelt post and I hope you and yours are enjoying your thanksgiving. We all have so much to be thankful for despite everything.

lotsa luv ann xxxx

GW Mush said...
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GW Mush said...

Hello boys and girls,
Welcome to Mr GwMush's Neighborhood.

Today is Thanksgiving. Arent we grateful that we will all overeat today when most of us struggle with being a fat ass already?

Boys & girls, can we all say 10 extra pounds on the old buttso?

At this moment, Im plumply stuffed & bloated.

I could almost vomit up my pumpkin pie all over my monitor screen.
Wouldnt that be funny boys & girls?
Yes, a new pumpkin screen saver for Thanksgiving, Mr Gw Mush would like that.

Boys & girls, you know what happens when you eat to much on Thanksgiving?

Yes, your tummy gets stretched and you"re ready to eat again.

Luckily, I have lots of leftovers for tomorrow that I must eat up because we cant waste food in America when all the starving people in africa dont have any turkey & pumpkins to eat.

I will see you tomorrow again after Im finished eating, so nice of you to visit GwMush's neighborhood today!

msliberty said...

Found my way over from Quasar's blog. This is such a beautiful, sincere list.

I wish you a very, very happy, peace-filled day.

~Deb said...

Thank you everyone for sharing your gratitudes with me on this special day! I hope all of you had a wonderful Thanksgiving, and ate and drank lots!

I ... cannot ... move! I'm in the same position as GW Mush right now.

God bless!

Anonymous said...

Here is a favorite prayer of mine from the Book of Common Prayer. It is called the Prayer for Quiet Confidence and is the one I use when I am confused, angry or down:

O God of peace, you have taught us that in returning and in rest we shall be saved, in quietness and confidence shall be our strength. By the might of your Spirit, life us, we pray, to your presence, where we may be still and know that you are God. Amen.

The Absent Minded Landlord said...

Lots to be thankfull for, although I don't know why your coffee has to be a racial thing ;)

Happy Thanksgiving!

CP said...

I'm grateful that I had my first Martini with the most beautiful woman alive.

Love you, doll.

CP.

Jazz said...

Well first of all I am definetly thankful I found your blog! Sorry I haven't been around much latley, I've been a bad blog buddy.
I am sooooo thankful for my family I would be sooo lost with out them.
And my girlfriends. I love them all.

steff81 said...

I'm thankful for so many things that it is hard to name just a few in the comments section. I can sum it up by saying that I'm thankful for my life...the ups, the downs, the normal, the crazy...I'm thankful for it all.

I love the idea that you started your post with a mention of God. He truly is what sustains us through everything. I've just very recently discovered that times will be great and times will be horrible but God will be there with me through it all. I'm so glad that you said that...it touched my heart tonight.

I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving!

Grace said...

Happy Thanksgiving Deb! I hope you had a great time with your family and friends :)

Big Mama said...

I am thankful for you ~deb. Sometimes when I am feeling blue and down, out of nowhere you show up and leave some sunshine on my blog. Seems like when I need you most, you are there to pick me back up again.
I am thankful for my kids/hubby and my health. I guess most of all I have an awesome life, what more is there?

nosthegametoo said...

We are all more than happy to share a bit of your life through you thoughts.

You have a beautiful way about you.

Peace and Love to you and yours.