Friday, January 27, 2012

Cancer Sucks

Rainy, dreary, foggy, unclear. It’s been like this for a bit... I haven’t been updating this site because my dad is sick right now and in the hospital. The family and I have been huddling around dad’s bed smiling so he can’t see the many tears held back for him. While we know the diagnosis and grim news, dad smiles, with hope, because some of the ‘truth’ has been hidden. But, I do believe in miracles and praying for one right now. I haven’t been able to write or think for the most part. My mind’s been so occupied. I guess if it was sunny outside, it would seem as though the weather was mocking us in some twisted way.

If you could say a prayer for my dad and ask for a miracle somehow, we’d appreciate it. I miss that crazy Italian telling us awful politically incorrect jokes and stories. It’s strange, after a year of being ‘out of it’ and not himself, while at the hospital this past week, his positive spirit came back somehow. I can’t explain it. We all said, “He’s back!” But while the doctor gave him a “sentence” for his life, it makes it that much harder to laugh with him, even though we’re trying.

I’ve posted this once before, but today, I just need to repost it to watch it again to remember how funny dad is. It was taken with my phone cam, so I'm sorry for the fuzziness. I don’t want my mom to lose her best friend. I don’t want dad to suffer anymore, but selfishly, I want him here for another thirty years...happily. In the footage below, he was 100 lbs more than he is now.

If you can't see the video above, click here.

I'll be back soon, when my head is back together...

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6 comments:

~Just me again~ said...

How sad and hard this must be for you. I'm sending prayers your way. (((BIG HUGS)))

Deb said...

Thank you, Miranda! I appreciate it! <3

Jess said...

Thinking about you and your family and sending prayers and much, much love. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Just_because_today said...

I love the way he talks.

You are not selfish, you just want a good thing, a good man to live forever. I would want the same

LCB said...

I'm keeping you and your family in my prayers. I know how it feels as I just lost my mom after a 3 year battle with breast cancer. Enjoy each and every moment with your father.

Anonymous said...

HEy Debra. I'm from Canada and I just happened to stumble across your blog today, I am so sorry for the difficult time that your family is having to walk through. I know you posted this back in January so it's a while ago but I thought I would let you know that someone thought of you and your family today. I pray that God has comforted your family through whatever circumstance you've had to walk through.

Marie