Continuing to Go On and On...

While praying, I had opened up to Colossians 2:13-23. It helped me to understand what God truly wants for me. I was struggling with the condemnation of other people’s judgments. God continues to show me that I am perfect in His eyes, and so are the rest of you.

“You were dead because of your sins and because your sinful nature was not yet cut away. Then God made you alive with Christ. He forgave all our sins. He canceled the record that contained the changes against us. He took it and destroyed it by nailing it to Christ’s cross. In this way, God disarmed the evil rulers and authorities. He shamed them publicly by his victory over them on the cross of Christ.
So don’t let anyone condemn you for what you eat or drink, or for not celebrating certain holy days or new-moon ceremonies or Sabbaths. For these rules were only shadows of the real thing, Christ himself. Don’t let anyone condemn you by insisting on self-denial. And don’t let anyone say you must worship angels, even though they say they have had visions about this. These people claim to be so humble, but their sinful minds have made them proud. But they are not connected to Christ, the head of the body. For we are joined together in his body by his strong sinews and we grow only as we get our nourishment and strength from God.
You have died with Christ, and he has set you free from the evil powers of this world. So why do you keep on following rules of the world, such as, “Don’t handle, don’t eat, don’t touch.” Such rules are mere human teaching about things that are gone as soon as we use them. These rules may seem wise because they require strong devotion, humility, and severe bodily discipline. But they have no effect when it comes to conquering a person’s evil thoughts and desires.”

Through arguing with many readers and writers about what is truly right or wrong in God’s eyes, I received answers through prayer and meditation as well as by reading the bible. People love to condemn and try to tear one another apart in God’s name, but if you really think about it, what good does it do to only anger someone who believes differently?

I’ve continued on defending myself and the way I live, however this time, I will just send my message that God gives to me and share it with those who need to hear it. I truly believe with all my heart that God loves each and every one of us.

All of us are flawed in a perfect way.

Does this sound like a contradiction? Probably. But when Jesus came to this world and died on the cross for us, He took our sinful nature and nailed it to the cross, as the scripture says above. I do believe that Jesus’ death was the price paid in full. I believe it was strong enough to conquer the sins that we all have within us. With that being said, I still believe that homosexuality is not a sin, however, all of us have a sinful nature that we just cannot shake off alone. We need help. And by that, I mean, we need help from God, to grow and mature in His word. We need to follow Him, find Him, accept Him and love Him. We need to have the spiritual maturity with the approach of a child; a child that wants to learn more from their father. Desiring more understanding and discernment is a wonderful thing. It isn’t philosophy or ‘worldly thinking’—it’s pure determination to want to seek a better relationship with God. What can be wrong with that? Who’s “truth” is better than yours? Who has the right to make that decision based on religious beliefs? God gave us choice, yet mere human beings won’t allow us to accept the choice. They want to continually fix us and make us into an image similar to them. Ironic, since we’re all in the image of Christ.

With many people coming onto my blog insisting that their truth is the way, maybe it was out of love- their truths act as human knowledge, leaving us, {me} to believe that they were condescending and judgmental. I accept the fact they believe that homosexuality is an abomination, however, for me, it’s different. I read it differently from the bible and the scriptures tell me a whole different story. It’s not “gay theology”, it’s my interpretation of how God speaks to me.

So, with that being said, I thank everyone who has given me their beliefs, opinions and judgments. I feel that they possibly did try to fix me…out of love. So, thank you, to all who have taken the time out to show me their truth. We may never agree upon a “truth”, yet I will always be thankful in my heart that your motives were in the right place.

God bless!

EDIT: Please visit Dave's blog and see how the relationship he has with God is so beautiful and so perfect. This is exactly how I feel. I couldn't have said it better myself. Thanks Dave!