Spoke to My Mother In Heaven: "It's All Worth It In the End"

A death of a loved one can truly bring out different emotions in you, especially on the anniversaries of their passing. For myself, these anniversaries bring up an intense connection I've never fully experienced before. Whether the veil is thinner, or they're just closer to you spiritually, the communication you can receive (if you are conscious enough) is simply amazing. This past Sunday was my mom's second anniversary of her passing. That late afternoon, I grabbed my wine and sat outside to just sit and think about her and all of our wonderful memories. I thought I was hearing my neighbor play "Sailing" by Christopher Cross. The thing is, it wasn't my neighbor---it was in my own mind. I heard it word for word, including interludes and each individual instrument playing on inside my mind. It wasn't "me" thinking up this song---it was just playing as if someone turned on the radio. I thought back to when my mom was depressed when she was in her 40's. I was probably around 5 years old. I sat next to her and wanted to know why she was crying. The song "Sailing" came on while we were watching TV. She said, "When I die, I want you to play this song by my grave." And for me, the thought of my mama dying was terrifying! Plus, I was only 5 years old! But for some reason, that song and those words my mother said stuck with me throughout life. Every time that song would play, it would remind me of what she said. After the song was playing in my mind, I then called out, "Alexa! Play soft rock."

What comes on?


I'm not one to believe in coincidences, and I wouldn't be typing this if more didn't happen, because people could just brush it off as "Eh that can happen from time to time"----and while that's true, more happened.

Mom's voice came through. She was saying how she can see me crying out for her, still grieving. She said word for word, "Oh Debbie, if you knew how it was here for me, you would never experience fear again!" Trying to absorb it all, I entertained the voice and said, "What do you mean, mom?" And she said something I will never forget.

"All the pain, the suffering, even the bad times throughout my life---it was all worth it in the end. Everything you're experiencing, like seeing me die, losing your mother and father and going through such unimaginable emotional pain you've ever experienced---you will see that one day, it was all worth it in the end."

My hair stood on end---literally---my arms had goosebumps and I felt this strange feeling, like tiny droplets of cold water going down my back.

The next song that came on after Mom said this was "September" by Daughtry. Here are some of the lyrics:

Now it all seems so clear, there's nothing left to fear 
So we made our way by finding what was real 
Now the days are so long that summer's moving on 
We reach for something that's already gone, yeah 
Of all the things I still remember 
Summer's never looked the same 
The years go by and time just seems to fly 
But the memories remain 
In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain 
Nothing to lose but everything to gain 
Reflecting now on how things could've been 
It was worth it in the end...

Then she continued on. She said, "You're so focused on dates and anniversaries. Here, we don't have any concept of time. Humans need dates and annual events to remember things, also to celebrate events. So I'm here celebrating with you."

I raised my glass of wine and secretly in my mind said, "Cheers, Mama. I love you."

I've always had a strange connection to 'the other side' that I tried so hard to avoid. Even days before the anniversary of my mama's passing, I was crying. Sometimes it got so bad, that I would let out a cry of "Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?" The moment I did that, a lady's voice was audibly speaking out from in the hallway. I couldn't make out what she was saying because it was too muffled and near the stairwell, but even so, I walked out and said, "Hello?"


Whenever something like this happens, I pray for a hedge of protection over myself with anointing oil, asking God to protect me from anything that is not of His will. Intense sadness, grief and depression can shake up the connections between you and the spirit world. Whether you're a believer of these things or not, it's a fact that some people experiencing "hauntings" in their time of grief or sadness. If it's a deep depression, their own sadness can drum up their own hauntings. It can also summons a connection with a loved one or an angel in your time of desperation. Strange things seem to happen, audible voices, maybe losing something and finding it in a place you never left it. But more so, if it is a deceased loved one from heaven or an angel, you won't get "hauntings," but you may receive beautiful messages. Be alert and do not entertain anything that is not familiar, and even if you hear a voice, pray to God to give you a hedge of protection and that anything that comes into contact with you is from God Himself or His angels ONLY. Tampering with what 'seems' like your deceased mom's voice (or any loved one) can be deceiving. Remember, the devil can mimic any voice he wants, making you rely on talking to what's called, "familiar spirits." It says in the Bible to test the spirits to see if they are from God. When you're this vulnerable, you have to be alert and try not to fall into these types of traps. They're very real. You can open up portals that cannot be closed. Don't entertain psychics or mediums. They're only communicating with "familiar spirits." They're not speaking to your loved ones.

Having a close relationship with God can open doors to the most beautiful experiences. Remember that God made your loved one, so talking to God is like talking to your loved one. I'd rather play it safe and talk to God than to be fooled. But sometimes, God will bless you with the ability to lightly communicate in a loving way under His hedge of protection. But when it happens, it's in God's timing only. I wouldn't suggest sitting down "praying" to your deceased loved one. Pray to God only. Anything after that is of His will, and He will comfort you in your time of mourning---even by giving you messages from your loved one who is doing better than all of us down here on earth.

When I got the message from my mom that "it was all worth it in the end," -- a part of me felt such relief and happiness. I know that without a doubt, something real, something beautiful, something even more wonderful than we could ever imagine is waiting for us on the other side, and it WILL be worth it. All of our troubles, our grief, our anxiety and depression will one day be lifted. All of our physical and emotional pain will dissipate into thin air once we leave our earthly bodies. When I heard my mom say that I would have absolutely no fear if I knew what was on the other side---it kind of took away some of my fear here on earth. It made me a little more confident and stronger knowing that our journey here is going to be worth it---even if we are crying in pain or sick from an illness---it is all worth it in the end.

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