And you know what?
"That's not an option now, Deb."
But see, looking back and I guess with hindsight being 20/20, she made the right decision. I wasn't good for her. And I'm not saying that I'm not a good person or not good enough for anybody else, but I wasn't in a good place at the time or even ready to share my life with another person. Just the fact that I had to think about it for a whole week or more was enough reason to show her that I was not ready for that big step. I was not ready for a mature relationship, just because I wasn't mature enough myself to begin with. And I'm not downing myself, I'm just stating facts.
Even through my own experiences, losing my dad or losing a partner -- these things are how our minds develop experience, knowledge and endurance. The endurance is what keeps us moving forward. It prepares us for future challenges in life. But I'm not an expert. I'm still trying to figure it all out as I travel through this winding road of life. I still make mistakes and sometimes, I even turn into a big crybaby. But I have to say that I always learn something different from my events. There's always something to be learned in those times you feel helpless. There's a quote that I love and I'm not sure who wrote it. But it says, "Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts."
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