Bandaid On a Bullet Hole
Removing the Bandaid
For the longest time, I've covered a bullet hole with a bandaid. Any quick fix would do. I was never taught to ride out the storm, but to only shelter from it. If I cried, I was begged not to cry. I was only encouraged to laugh, and to also make other people laugh. As I got older, it was encouraged to numb the emotional pain or trauma by self-medicating. Of course, no one threw a cold one at me and screamed out, "Here---this'll help get the 'feel bads' outta ya!" Everyone around me drank to ease the pain. I thought that this was the norm---this was what you were supposed to do. Trust me, I didn't mind the liquid courage, but after some time, it affected my health, mentally and physically. The closer I drew to God, the less I needed the 'fruit of the vine' or the 'potato juice.' But once I put the drink down, that's when the soul wounds needed tending to.
For years, the only way to mask the anxiety was either to drink through it or take a pill for it. I wasn't told to try and go through it. It wasn't until recently when I truly learned the message of, 'if God brought you to it---He'll get you through it.' God isn't going to just remove a difficult season in your life. He will teach you how to fish and how to walk on water like He did with Peter. He isn't going to make life too easy on us...but for good reason.
The Story of Peter Walking On Water
Meanwhile, the disciples were in trouble far away from land, for a strong wind had risen, and they were fighting heavy waves. About three o’clock in the morning Jesus came toward them, walking on the water.