You Just Can't Disprove God
Feels nice, right?
But let me ask you this: how would anyone be an example or an inspiration to others if they didn't go through hard times? How would we adapt to a world if it became imperfect? We wouldn't be prepared for it--to help ourselves, as well as to help other people.
Here's my take on the world. You can disagree if you'd like--but I firmly believe this to be actually factual to some degree.
My point is, there has to be a balance in our lives that give us that ebb and flow, in order to use our experience to be of help to other people.
In eastern cultures, they believe in Yin Yang.
When people see things as beautiful, ugliness is created.
When people see things as good, evil is created.
Being and non-being produce each other.
Difficult and easy complement each other.
Long and short define each other.
High and low oppose each other.
Fore and aft follow each other. --Tao Ti Ching
In the Bible, it's clear that we definitely need balance.
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace. ---Ecclesiastes 3
Take for instance, my personal story. Ten years ago, my parents begged us to move into their large home so we could take care of my father who was dying from cancer. This was a huge traumatic event for me and my family. After Dad passed away, we were worried about the painful grief my mother was about to experience. But soon after his death, my mom came down with 'the big C.' I cried, prayed, begged and even broke down where I could no longer function at times. But I did my best to care for Mom the best I knew how. There were quite a few family conflicts of who did what and who wasn't doing enough---many families go through that, but we made it through that rough patch. The worst fear of my life was coming true when she was told she only had a few months to live. I didn't want to believe it. In fact, she kept that a secret from me for a long time, until I saw her one day lifeless. She was on morphine, Fentanyl and Percocet. I thought I had lost her, but didn't. However it made me realize the extent of her pain. The day I said goodbye to my mother was the day that crushed my spirit. It felt like my soul was ripped right out of my body.
I broke down.
I shut down.
I. just. stopped. living.
I didn't want to see anyone or do anything. Even though I worked from home, it wasn't much work. I couldn't even think, no less do my job right. I was in complete isolation for a couple of years. I pushed away a lot of people, regretfully. I couldn't handle entertaining, as I always loved to do. I was now in a large house all alone, up on a mountain a mile high without a soul in sight, until my partner came home late at night from work. So I started praying and spending most of my time with God. I prayed without ceasing. At times, the silence was deafening. A friend suggested to turn on worship music in each room, this way it could change the atmosphere. And it did. I began to do more things as I clung to God with everything I had. He started giving me this sort of peace that He explains in the Bible. It's the peace that transcends all understanding. I understood what it's like to be completely alone, isolated and depressed. Countless tears could've flooded the valley below us. Physically, I had put on a lot of weight and my hair was literally falling out from stress. I went to see my doctor and although it'll grow back, she put me on an exercise regimen to maintain a healthier weight. She said with exercise and the balance of a good diet, my stress levels will go down and the hair will grow back in within three months. Stress can really do a number on you. At night, I used to suffer with seizures due to stress. I never slept. I'd go five days without sleep before I finally crashed. I began to develop tachycardia, where my heart rate would sky rocket up to 150 bpm. It was all stress, confirmed by my cardiologist.
But my point is, I now help other people dealing with caregiving for their elderly parents, and I'm also apart of a mental health support group, sharing my story and helping others grasp some sort of peace in this world. I was trying my best to be a blessing to other people. I relied on God to guide me through it all.
Then my prayers were answered.
He gives beauty for ashes, "...to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair."--Isaiah 61
It also states: "Instead of their shame my people will receive a double portion, and instead of disgrace they will rejoice in their inheritance; and so they will inherit a double portion in their land, and everlasting joy will be theirs."
Trials and tribulations are good for us.
“We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they are good for us--they help us to learn and endure. And endurance develops strength of character in us, and character strengthens our confident expectation of salvation. And this expectation will not disappoint us. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.” ~Romans 5:35
My level of faith has increased so much, that it is now a matter of 'I know that I know that I know' He is real---or more so, listening and being there in the midst of our lives. I've always believed, but wondered if He was around me, listening to me, or maybe just "busy." No, he was right here in my heart as I asked Him to be.
My life is still far from perfect, but I can definitely say that my level of happiness has increased so much due to God's blessings. Moving out of my childhood home has given me mixed emotions too. It's almost like my parents dying all over again. This is the house they started our family in. Every section of this house, every brick, every stone, every single room has a special memory. I pray that whoever does buy this home is blessed with love, health and laughter. I just have to let go and trust God right now.
If you're an unbeliever reading this right now, I dare you to start praying for God to work in your life. Ask Him to live in your heart, and remember, His timing is always perfect. It took ten years of agonizing traumatic events to finally 'be right here.' I'm happy to know that there is no way anyone could possibly disprove God for me.
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