Thursday, December 07, 2006

Hormonal Mess

A tiring and exhausting week of doctors, doctors…and more doctors has me wiped out. I’m being tested for PCOS, (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) which involves a normal pap smear, blood tests, and they started me on birth control pills. As if I need birth controls of any sort. I should really shuffle through Google about the side effects of birth control pills, but I’m scared. I’ll obsess about each and every “possible” side effect they have listed. I do that with any medication- even if it’s Tylenol. I’m not a smoker, so he said that none of the ‘high blood pressure risks’ are applicable. I’m on Loestrin, which my doctor reassures me this is a lighter type of pill. It’s to regulate my hormones and my menstruation. They found a polyp that is one and a half centimeter big. I need a DNC procedure- which they have to put me under anesthesia to do this. I’ve never had an operation or procedure before, other than lasik eye surgery. This is a whole different ballgame.

Now that I have been on these pills, I’m finding that I’m very fatigued and cry at the drop of a hat. On top of that, I’ve been developing anxiety attacks- out of nowhere! I mean, yeah I have anxiety disorder and depression from time to time, but these anxiety attacks include hyperventilation and racing of the heart. My hormones are out of control, and I thought this was supposed to level them out. I have an appointment with my doctor Tuesday to find out if it’s the pills that’s causing these symptoms.

I wonder if I just requested for an entire sex change, if that would sit well with my doctor—or the radical Christians. Then I wouldn’t be gay anymore, right? Hmm. Something to think about at least. You men have it easy!!! I’m having major penis envy with all this womanly crap going on.

Sorry I’ve been away much of the time, but I haven’t been feeling good lately. Once I get more energy, I’ll post more. And if anyone could give me some “womanly advice” as far as PCOS and the DNC procedure, I would appreciate it a lot! I’m kind of scared to do this, but if it helps relieve the intense cramps that debilitate me, the irregular periods and wacky hormones- then it’s worth it!


Leesa said...

Sorry, babe, not advice for you and your procedure. When I was taking some fertility drugs, I actually developed cysts. They were painful, babe, but they did not do a procedure to get them out. I just had painful and heavy periods for a couple of months.

Enemy of the Republic said...

I hope you feel better and the doctors do their job. You are in my prayers.

~Deb said...

Leesa: That's what I'm scared of- to develop any other kind of crap. I'd rather not do anything- but my pain every month is just awful!

Enemy: Thank you! That's the best thing you can offer me! :)

Natalia said...

I have PCOS. I'd be happy to give you any answers to any questions you have. There are a lot of forums out there. And it does affect people in different ways. Ah the joys of womanhood, right?



SherBears said...

I have PCOS (add that to having only one ovary, it's a miracle that I have my kid), it's terrifying when first diagnosed. Other than irregular periods and terrible cramps, mine doesn't bother me. Of course, I could take birth control to alieviate the cramps, but between the $75/month cost and that it makes my acne break out severely...I don't mind laying on the couch with a hot pack every few months.

Take care of yourself, get some rest, take extra calcium and B vitamins (they help) and try not to obsess. Part of the anxiety attacks may be your fear of the DNC.

Big Mama said...

((((((~deb)))))))<-big hugs! I can't offer advice, I can just loan you my shoulder. Hope you are feeling better and more like yourself soon...

Much Love,

GW Mush said...

Awww Deb
I didnt know you were going through all this. My thoughts are with you and I hope everything turns out fine, those doctors better get this straightened out so you can feel better.
My womanly advice is to still bat yer eyelashes and have a martini:)

~Deb said...

Sherbears: I thought that birth control pills were supposed to clear up our skin...? Hmm. My cramps are so bad, I sometimes get really sick from it and pass out. I welcome menapause!

Big mama: Thank you! I appreciate that!

GW: Thanks! Now, do you know why I love martinis? It's bad enough I tank myself up with 800 mg of Motrin- which makes me feel all fatigued and clumsy! May my liver rest in peace...

The Muser said...

I found your blog after reading CP's blog comments. Ironically, I was ALSO just diagnosed with PCOS. I've read alot about it, and did you know that one of the associated things with PCOS is anxiety? Personally, I take Xanax when I need it. It's beautiful stuff.

I haven't really bought into taking birth control pills, though. Since I'm not in danger of getting pregnant anytime soon (thanks to my fiance walking out on me last month), I figure I can live without the side effects (I'm already fat enough and moody enough as it is). I figure, I've probably had it for years (as evidenced by the clinical signs that previously went undiagnosed), and it didn't bother me all that much. So why take something to treat it that will just make me irritable?

Oh, also, I had a DNC about 15 years ago. It really isn't all that bad. Pretty uncomfortable, yes, but not really painful or anything. You'll bleed for a few days afterwards, but that's normal.

I know what you mean- womanly stuff sucks sometimes. But think about it this way- you have beautiful hair that the rest of us would kill for :).

You'll get through this.

Video X said...

The DNC shouldn't be too bad if you are under anesthesia!

I'd do it to relieve cramps that's for sure.

I am not a medical expert in any way.

I feel bad for you though that this is happening!! I so hope it resolves as quickly and painlessly as possible.

I cannot take any kind of hormonal pill nonsense makes me NUTSO! And I mean really nuts. I think the world is ending.

I hate this shit! One would think that with all the medical advancement in other areas, that women should not have to suffer as much as they do with all this crap!

~Deb said...

The Muser: My doctor told me that the birth control pills that he prescribed to me would not make me gain weight. I thought that birth controls did make you gain weight. That's something I do not need! Then he said it would be great for my skin. Others tell me differently. I hate taking anything that has weird side effects. Not fun. Sorry that you're going through this too. He did say that my anxiety disorder may be linked with PCOS. Thank you for sharing that with me!

Video: A couple of summers ago, my sister told me to take HGH--(Human Growth Hormone) and it was supposed to make you lose weight, feel better, decrease anxiety, etc.... I ended up gaining weight and having anxiety from it! I said, "Human growth hormones?" GROWTH??? I just don't trust anything when it comes to hormones. The DNC, Madelene got last year, and she said it wasn't too bad. But, I'm so scared about being put under. Eh.

Saur♥Kraut said...

I'm so sorry this is happening to you, sweetie. You know my number, so feel free to call if you want to chat or vent! ;o) Try to avoid thinking about it (easier said than done, I realize) and do what you can to stay busy in something else. Anything else. It will help you cope right now.

Anonymous said...

I have no medical advice.

I have a hug.

samuru999 said...

Dear Deb
I am sorry you are going through all of this. I unfortunately have no medical advice.
I have you in my thoughts and prayers!
Hugs to you!


Nancy said...

Oof. I am so sorry you are going through this.

I can say that BCPs made me want to go on a tri-state shooting spree, and I was in tears for months. It was a serious deal - I honestly felt HORRIBLE and like someone else, even on the low-dose pills. I feel much better now on them, but I still sometimes have one day a month where I burst into tears for no apparent reason. It sucks, but it's better now. I didn't switch around and try other pills because I was afraid I would do something stupid on them, like drive into a tree or gain 300 pounds (and then drive into a tree). It's serious stuff, even though the docs say it's all in our heads sometimes. Yeah, right.

Hang in there and do what you need to do. The D&C is no fun, but it's a common procedure and you will be fine.

Lightning Bug's Butt said...

Jeez. I'm sorry to read you're going through all of that. Go peruse WebMD. They have great peer-reviewed articles on all that stuff.

Catch said...

DNC...a dusting and cleaning of the uterus....very simple will be fine. Sometimes I think these Dr's are too quick to put women on this hormonal stuff. I havent taken any of it yet. To tell you the truth Im scared of it. Just because a Dr says you need to be on something doent mean you do. Thats his opinion...and I have my opinion. My best friend gets that ring...( hormones) and when its time for a new ring she is about nuts. I always say to her " Did your ring fall out?"...lmao.. When I started through the change of life and was having a few mood swings I got on zoloft, havent had any problems since. It keeps me on an even keel. The D and C may help your cramps so it will be worth it. Are you t aking zoloft or anything comparable to it? That may be all you need.

Anonymous said...

Chocolate helps.

I don't know much about PCOS - only what I have read online and been told, but I do know that it sounds like a stressful proceedure. Your anxiety and stress is justified.

Its good to have people who love you around too - especially the funny ones who will keep you laughing or play nurse for you.

Did I mention my nurses outfit is made of patent leather?

Cinderella said...

I have never had any of those procedures done (Knock on wood)..I am on the pill though. The pill is good for keeping a regular cycle. If they make your depression worse then you need to get off of them ASAP.

Good luck with everything, I am thinking about ya!

The Absent Minded Landlord said...

I can't disagree with you, having my penis is pretty great ;)

Sorry about all the medical stuff. I say take SIH up on her chocolate and nurse idea for distraction.

GW Mush said...

My penis hasnt given me any problems either.

Geek said...

Hope you get to feeling better. Oh and I shall heed the advice of a woman who knows. Tense will forever more (and always had, I might add) have something for the "sweet tooth". ME!

Geek said...

I cant add much on the medical issue.

Anonymous said...

I have PCOS, and as someone above mentioned, it affects each woman differently. There are a whole host of symptoms and complications, but not every woman gets each thing. A site that I think is really great is:

You'll find a lot of very detailed information there, including lots of different treatment options. I highly recommend that one.

Also, a D and C (dilation and curettage) isn't painful, but it isn't comfortable either. I didn't have general anesthesia, I had a spinal, which freaked me out. I couldn't feel a thing from the waist down for like, four hours. Still, I was awake, which for me is better than being put under. That freaks me out even more.

There's some good info about the procedure here:

Sorry about the long web address. I always forget how to put links in my comments.

If you have any questions, please don't hesitate to ask.

DaBich said...

Awwww (((((((((((((DEB)))))))))))) Big hugz for ya, girl. Yup, sometimes being a woman sucks, but it's better than being a man ;)

I take Alesse BC and it doesn't make me gain weight or break out. I'd say it's your nerves, so relax...I know easier said then done.

Good luck on the DNC and I sure hope it clears up the problem!

Anonymous said...

oh i am so sorry to hear all this. hormones suck! are there any other options than the pills? anxiety attacks are horrible...i experience them too. i feel for you...i hope things get better.

Anonymous said...

The D&C is not a big deal. I have had more than my share following miscarriages. The anethesia is light, you feel nothing, the proceedure is short and there might be a little bleeding or cramping afterwards, but they will give you something for that.
I am SO sorry about the hormones being out of whack - nothing worse in my opinion - makes you feel like you are out of whack from the inside out. I don't know how old you are, but it could it be the onset of menopause? When it hit me, the anxiety attacks were awful and I cried if you looked at me. I found soy supplements really helped, but check with your dr to see if they are ok with the bc pills. Praying for you - it WILL get better.

rich said...

As for the birth control pills.. they usually prescipe a low dose that should not have any side effects. It's not a high enough dose to prevent pregnancy but more to prevent your symptoms.

Neers said...

Deb, no birth control pills!! u dont need them!! theyplay havoc with woman's body... nopes! anythig else... you know what, i dunno, if you can manage this... get into yoga!! am serious!

loads of love! take care!

~Deb said...

Thanks everyone! I have stopped taking the pills. Yeah, it may have been just nerves and all, but it all started when I started taking these things. I'm uneasy about messing with my hormones. If, after the DNC procedure, I'm still cramping and having problems, I'm going to look into a lower dose pill...(possibly.)

I appreciate all the advice and best wishes!

Oh, Rev. Kate, I'm 32 years old. Do you think I could be on the start of "the change"???

Anonymous said...

I had many d & c which were nothing compared to the monthly cramps and bleeding.

for the anxiety & panic I was on anti depressents (didn't work made them work) and xanax is a god sent

for me I found stress tabs (vitamins) to be better than any other medication I tried, and cheaper too. You can buy these with, or without iron. (you may need the iron with the heavy bleeding)

Good Luck

LisaBinDaCity said...

I doubt the insurance company would be happy about the sex change either. Probably deny if cause it would involve a pre-existing condition ;-)

ann said...

you poor thing... brings back memories. The D & C isn't too bad. I had to have my whole womanhood removed. The pill shouldn't affect your weight, but my daughter went back to the doctor because she started anxiety attacks from her bc. He insisted she went back on it. It's horses for courses Deb. I wish you well and you get your problem sorted out real quick. Deb, no, I don't think it's the change.... you're far too young.

In the meantime I wish you and yours a lovely weekend.

Take care

lotsa luv ann xxxxx

Anonymous said...

I have pcos and endometriosis. I had a d and c at the end of August and was prescribed Loestrin. I also had terrible terrible anxiety and crying spells on the loestrin. I only took it for 4 days, I couldn't take it anymore. My dr. put me on glucophage, a diabetes medication that helps with pcos (by the way if you havent, have your fasting blood sugar checked. Insulin resistance and pcos often go hand in hand.) The d and c wasn't bad at all. Minor spotting and cramping after the procedure, but after two years of not having periods, after the surgery and this medication I have now been ovulating and menstruating regularly. Good luck!

CP said...

The D&C will make you feel a lot better, Deb. Gets rid of a lot of toxins that plague the uterine lining. As for the loestrin, I am very much against it for young women. Especially young women with certain psych disorders. A change in diet and exercise would be much better. Not always easy, but the additional estrogen is not always the right choice for women who have certain psych and/or depressive disorders. It can exacerbate symptoms.

Love you. Feel better mah love.


Nihilistic said...

Hope you're feeling better soon!! :*

QUASAR9 said...

Hi Deb,
hope you are feeling better
and your weekend is going great!

samuru999 said...

Hi Deb


Wishing you joys that are everlasting and true....
A heart that's not troubled or gray...
Friends who will travel life's pathway
with you...
And love and blessings each day!



Miss 1999 said...


PLEASE-- stop taking those things! I speak from experience. I smashed mine with a hammer in the front yard. I was so depressed ALL the time after starting birth control. The night I stopped taking them, I sat on my couch sobbing, asking God to take me if I had to live that way forever. That's when I stopped taking the birth control.

As a woman with PCOS, I can tell you, there are MANY other treatments available to you-- talk to your doctor about them. I'll be more than glad to talk to you about PCOS anytime, I know what a bitch it is to live with it (if it turns out you have it as well)


Åsa said...

Deb! I’m so sorry to hear you are having so much medical problems! Don’t give up though. Let your doctor find you something else if this doesn’t work. As for birth-control. There are pills that will help clear your skin and pills who won’t affect your skin. I’m sure it’s the same for the weight gain issue. I personally don’t need to be on the pill for any pregnancy reason (celibacy don’t make you pregnant…), but if I don’t take them I’ll have at least one day a month in cold sweat on the bathroom floor due to cramps and stuff. Now I’m not as pms’ie as I used to be and I don’t get cramps. This is on very week ones too. I have changed a few times to find the right kind for me though.

Find what is right for you and your body!

Warm hugs and happy thoughts for you.

Xxooxx Åsa

ell said...

deb - so sorry to hear about your health issues. hope you find the answer and feel better soon.


Anonymous said...

Hey sweety, I hope things level out soon. I hear that whenever you start on a new birth control pill you can have some big hormonal mood swings. It takes time for your body to adjust.


Beth said...

Sorry for all the lame anxiety attacks and oversensetive bullcrap! I stopped taking the pill yesterday actually, I just got sick and tired of all the symptoms I was having.


kathi said...

Awwww, honey...I'm so sorry. I've not been around much either, but wished I'd known so I could've been praying for you. I'll e you soon, big hug and lot's of love!

Anonymous said...

Hope you're feelin better soon!

Mr. H.K.
Postcards from Hell's

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Arooj said...

I was so depressed ALL the time after starting birth control. The night I stopped taking them, I sat on my couch sobbing, asking God to take me if I had to live that way forever. That's when I stopped taking the birth control. Eplerenone