Friday, February 27, 2009

Two Can Sam Can't Hang...

It’s 4am and I have insomnia. I went to sleep at midnight but woke up at 4am bright-eyed and bushy-tailed. I believe it was because I fell off the wagon last night. I indulged in 2 beers, Michelobe Ultra Light or whatever. In other words: the weakest beer in the world. I thought I was safe. I passed my 90 days and decided, hey I’m going to have a couple of beers with dinner. I thought doing it “light” would help, especially since my tolerance was at an all time low.

The verdict: I HATE DRINKING! Every sip was uneventful and the buzz was more like a zombie-like ‘bout to hit coma stage. It got me tired and nothing else. But, I did find out one thing: I’m allergic to alcohol. This is what I believe, anyway. Anytime I have more than one drink, I can never sleep a full night. And I’ve been sober for over 90 days now and each night slept like a baby. I can definitely say without a doubt that I do not enjoy the effects of alcohol any longer. I’m actually glad I fell off the wagon a tad, to discover that I wasn’t missing much.

(I know my friends are going to laugh their butts off when they hear, “two beers”...they’re going to call me, “Two Can Sam”.) Go ahead...mock away!

I’ve decided to stay sober for life! Sometimes, things happen for wonderful reasons!

Goodnight, or...good morning!

19 comments:

SJ said...

Good that you got to "test" yourself. If it's not fun why drink at all? Though I don't seem to have any bad reactions to the occasional drink myself it's not like we have to.


And...
Two can Sam!!

~Deb said...

And to think I used to drink like 5 of these with a few shots on the side... I was drunk off one! Never again. I guess now you can literally call me a cheap date.
What are you doing up so early???

SJ said...

LOL@early.

Two can Sam is a cheap date!

Leesa said...

I used to be a big drinker. Not any more. Hope you don't crash at 10 am.

~Deb said...

SJ: I'm totally clueless with time zones...you'll have to forgive me, especially the time I was up, eastern time in the US.

Leesa: I went back to sleep for a couple of hours and now I'm good. I'm just glad that I know for sure that I really do not enjoy drinking...even if it was only 2 beers.

Just_because_today said...

Back on the wagon...Sometimes we want something so badly, but it is really just the idea of it, and once we get it we realize we were better off without it. Of course, I've never said that about my wine...

Trashman said...

I quit drinking 15 years ago (except for twice, one time got me barred from Cesars Palace for life). My wife told me she was pregnant and since I grew up with alcoholic parents I decided my kids would never see me drink. I didn't give up cocaine however until my tounge swoll up and split. That's when I decided enough was enough. Good luck with staying on the wagon. I know it can be a rough ride sometimes.

Grant said...

Are you allowed NyQuil on the program? That's been getting me through the nights (I'm currently sick). Although I have heard that it is common for people who don't drink alcohol to have a restless and short sleep after drinking. It puts you out, but doesn't promote productive sleep.

And does this mean I can sometimes sodomize Asian schoolgirls just to ensure that I'm not a pedophile?

Jess said...

Glad it was only two and also happy that you know what you know. I PERSONALLY don't sleep worth shit when I drink. I THINK I am sleeping, but it is really just one of those right on the verge of sleep kinda sleeps. Makes for one very grumpy Jess in the morning!

I have been doing pretty good at keeping drinking nights down during the week. I am really, really going to try for once on the week days and once on the weekends...we shall see though!

xoxo

~Deb said...
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~Deb said...

Just_because_today: You are so right on so many levels. I love your parallel posts and comments. They just “fit”. {{hugs}}

Trashman: Wow, that must have been so hard. Last night when I was at a meeting no less, (before I picked up the first drink), this man was describing how he needed to drink a 6 pack in the morning, then throw it back up into the sink, and down another six pack, just to function as we do sober every day. I felt out of place because I never go to that point, but I’m just glad that I realize now that I really don’t have a taste for alcohol any longer. It’s like picking up a cigarette after a year of quitting. It’s gross. (Well, for some people.) Thanks for sharing that.

Grant: You’re right. It will definitely make you tired, but the process of withdrawal - even just a small bit will wake you up. It gives me a racing heart. So, I value my sleep more than I do my buzz.

Jess: Same here. I can totally relate. I just can’t go through another sleepless or restless night because that brings on my anxiety even more so. I never thought alcohol would increase my anxiety; I thought it lessened it. Moderation is the key and if it doesn’t affect you where it doesn’t bother you or those around you, then that’s great. For me, I need to stay sober to function, work and be there for the people I love. Good luck, Jess! Let me know how it goes! It’s hard. I did the 90 day trial and thought, welp, after that, I’ll go back to ‘every once in a while’ - and that proved to be pointless.

Ian Lidster said...

Before I stopped drinking 12 years ago I suffered from chroni insomnia. Since that time it has been virtually non-existent. Booze really screws up the circadian rhythms.

Anyway, I found you here via Leesa and that is recommendation enough for me. Like your blog very much.

Anonymous said...

Deb: One thing about falling off the wagon is you can get right back on it.

Kevin

~Deb said...

Ian: Hi, thanks for visiting! I couldn't believe that booze was a huge contributor to my sleepless nights. I can't tell you how happy I am to find out that I am allergic to alcohol. And, if it disturbs my sleep---I consider that an allergy. :) Thanks for your input!

Kevin: I'm on it for good, Kevin! I love it! Thank you!

the walking man said...

After almost nine years I have lately been wanting to hit that fifth of Jim Beam again with a pretty bad longing to just get fucked up and stay fucked up. I don't get any damn sleep anyway.

I hate seeing my old lady cry.

~Deb said...

The Walking Man: You have problems sleeping as it is? Have you seen a doctor about it or is it stress? And, (your wife I’m assuming), why does she cry? Or, she would cry if you started drinking again? Just think - your writing wouldn’t be as good if you went back. Ever since I quit drinking, I’ve found an interest in practically everything - even stuff I’m not very good at. Hang in there! Life is so much better sober, at least in my opinion.

Art said...

No, I'll not laugh. I admire your desire to give up drinking as well as the lesson learned from your 2-can experience.

I have had very different experiences with alcohol. I like a nice wine and an occasional beer and I have found that imbibing, moderately, heightens my interest in things. And it does tend to help me sleep.

That's the thing about alcohol, though, it affects people very differently. So I hope you stay sober, Deb.

~Deb said...

There's that group that does the "moderation drinking"---I forget what they're called, but they're just like AA, but they think moderation should be practiced. You're absolutely right though - alcohol affects people differently. I notice that when I drink vodka, my heart races about 3 hours after I have had a few. Then, with my last experience, it happened with the beer - AND - beer never affected me like that. I guess my tolerance was so low that my system went into shock. Two beers and I'm done! LOL SAD!!!! But, yeah I'm staying sober and I have found such a new world! I'm very excited and almost glad that I'm allergic to it. (I'm guessing I'm allergic.)

Thanks for sharing, Art!

the walking man said...

*sigh* I know Deb...I know.